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12.8k · Jan 2019
where's eternal sunshine
NvrMnd Jan 2019
I am
filled
with
clouds &
confusion
6.2k · Jun 2016
I am a Poem
NvrMnd Jun 2016
I am not a woman
No, not a man either
No flesh so keep shush
Crossing borderlines
Of love and hate

Through letters
Perfectly distorted
By motion of emotions
Spilling ink through papers
I am born free to wander

My body is a story
Of pain and pleasure
Slipping through time
Yet keep sailing away
From oblivion*

-I am a poem.
Lately I have this strange feeling of not being a human anymore.
I feel like my biological composition is fleeing and what's left are pure emotions.
And it's actually good, I can be anywhere, be anyone, genderless but still has an identity..
-Equality and Freedom-
5.8k · Sep 2015
Oras
NvrMnd Sep 2015
..
*Nasayang na Oras
Ako'y nakaposas
'Di makawala
sa mga bagay
na nawala.
4.0k · Oct 2015
Orange Soft Pastel
NvrMnd Oct 2015
...
Sky of Orange Soft Pastel,
A fire that burnt
A misty-eyed.

Fiery sunset
Yet gentle color hush
Warmth a cold dying soul.

Suddenly sway in rush,
Grey cloud storm
Overruled.

Orange soft pastel burning
Died.. along with the
Cold dying soul.

...
I've seen how
Moments do shift
.
.
Like feelings,
Like Love.
2.8k · Sep 2015
My Heart Lives
NvrMnd Sep 2015
...
My heart beats
So my heart will speak
My heart knows
So my heart will choose

My heart gives
Then my heart will beg
My heart loves
Then my heart will hate

My heart breaks
But my heart will heal
My heart dies
But my heart will live...

*...again
2.7k · May 2016
Control (Lyric by Halsey)
NvrMnd May 2016
I sat alone in bed 'til the morning
I'm crying, "They're coming for me"
And I tired to hold these secrets inside me
My mind's like a deadly disease....

...And I've grown familiar
With villains that live in my head
They beg me to write them
So I'll never die when I'm dead...
Dark and Perfect
2.7k · Sep 2015
Philophobia (Fear of Love)
NvrMnd Sep 2015
I'm afraid to love you
For people always seeking new
I'm not telling that it is you
Just old things treasured by few
Everything is good as blossoming flower,
Could we make it fresh in forever?
I couldn't risk what is left of me
Unsure of the love you promise
Don't get me wrong, we feel the same I know
Fearing to lose the love once more.
2.2k · Feb 2016
Eyes Closed
NvrMnd Feb 2016
Perfection... with my eyes closed
I see what I want to see
Feel what I want to feel
Owned the world in a blink of a moment

Mountains, seas,  places in dreams, all is free...
Hear the music that calm the demon inside me
See the colors worth to pay my eyes to be blind
And fall in love with someone that never and will never exist

Death, oh death would be the life of what if’s
What if I am her or what if I have him
The world of perfection says
*"Close your eyes and own me."
1.8k · Oct 2015
Problem with Heartbreak
NvrMnd Oct 2015
~
*Is that to you,
it's like an atomic bomb

And to the world,
it's just really cliché

Because in the end,
we all have the same experience.
~
Kate
Drinking Buddies
1.7k · Mar 2016
Why am I here?
NvrMnd Mar 2016
-
Have you ever been in a moment?

When you wake up in the morning
You see it all blank
You feel like you’re nothing
Everything has no meaning
Asking yourself ‘why am I here’?
Why am I living but feeling dead
Why am I still here?
Asking what’s the purpose?
The reason for all of this
Then you find no answer
And you want to end it in a click
But you can’t
Because at the same moment
You still want to live
Be one of the braves
Whose still fighting
And you still have hope
That one day in a million days
You’ll find the answer
The reason why you’re in this moment

*Beholding the past
Dying today
And living for tomorrow.
I deleted it before because I think it’s too cliché and of course I’m not the only one who feels depressed at some moment (life is cliché). And I’m too paranoid and scared that someone I know might read it and judge me, that I’m about to take my life or something like I’m crazy.. Well maybe I am depressed that day and it keeps coming over and over and I’m tired.. it makes me crazy… but I still have hope that days would be different and I could be better.

So now here it is -I just need to let it out.
1.6k · Sep 2015
Antagonist, Protagonist
NvrMnd Sep 2015
I'm battling the toughest enemy
myself, that i couldn't carry
Everyday i want to bury
my heart that's always teary

Arrogance sometimes arising
Selfishness is encircling
Desolation isolated me
lack of passion come free
My ambition is so high
without persuasion I die
Alone in high tones
come without high hopes
Negativity are all in my system
each day distressing perfect scheme

My toughest enemy is not you
from the start it was me, and always it’ll be
Fighting every inch of my piece
yearning to defeat the fiercest antagonist.
-the enemy is within-
1.5k · Mar 2016
Too many lonely people
NvrMnd Mar 2016
Trying
to be a hero
with their
pen and ink.
1.4k · Sep 2015
Poison Cornucopia
NvrMnd Sep 2015
...
His words
Are sweet

Like chocolate
.
.
.
But has a bitter
aftertaste


**A Poison Cornucopia!
Sweet words -don't let them trick you.
1.4k · Oct 2015
Elusive Dream of Love
NvrMnd Oct 2015
~

Hand over heart

Hold on.
Please hold on,
Don't Fall in Love.

You know how it’ll sound.
Love is a strong midnight coffee
that will make your heart palpitate.
A booming sound of drumroll beating
causes sleepless nights over thinking.
Elusive Dream of Love's awakening.
.
Now
Hold onto your heart
And Listen,

.
Listen to the whisper of aloneness.
Remember, it’s your favorite music.
A velvet blanket covering your body
under the unfathomable calm night.
Silence, isn’t it heaven to you?
Now, let it be that way,
Don't Fall in Love.
Please hold on,
Hold on.


Hand over heart

~
ELUSIVE DREAM OF LOVE
1.3k · Sep 2015
Horrifying Ugly
NvrMnd Sep 2015
...
“I understand”, you’ll say
“You actually don’t”, I can say

...
We don’t really understand each other, do we?
What we truly feel is under the deepest of sea
We act differently as what is real
Predictable façade is what we see
...
Forged by its surrounding
It is deceiving

...
We react, we judged, we don’t understand
What people really stand
Within the horrifying ugly face of human race
Is a soul that is pure, living in its suitcase
...
He scream, he fight, he fall
Left unheard at all

...
-nothing more-
1.3k · Apr 2017
Project Mayhem
NvrMnd Apr 2017
And suddenly I realized that all of this,
The gun, the bombs, the revolution
Has got something to do
With a girl named Marla Singer.

Cornelius, Rupert, Travis, Tyler Durden
Who could really tell how many are we in a single body?
Mind creating multiple personas, good or bad
Or both could mean the same thing,
A label, a name as it is,
Could mean something or nothing

And there could always be a Tyler Durden
The Bold and Free, The Enlightened one


We see ourselves as we’d like to be
Good or Bad? Again, we decide what is right
Founder of our own fellowship
For our own Project Mayhem
For a girl named Marla Singer..
What again is a Project Mayhem?

**All I know is…
First and Second Rule:
You do not ask questions about PROJECT MAYHEM.
oh boy, a little late for the topic 'movies' but I'd like to share it still (for the love of film)
1.2k · Sep 2015
Another Sad Story
NvrMnd Sep 2015
When no one
pays attention
to your soulful
sad story.
1.2k · Jul 2021
Precious breath
NvrMnd Jul 2021
Maybe I've felt more loneliness
Than happiness in my entire life
But those pleasant times
That my heart is in bliss
Are precious breaths
That I have to keep
1.1k · Nov 2015
Century Old Trees
NvrMnd Nov 2015
I imagined…

I was walking alone on a highway
With a grey-ish sky above
And a grey-ish slender trees around
Looking straight forward
With this grey-ish road scene

Now I can’t imagine how long I was imagining

If I can tell, maybe a month walking a mile
with these swollen feet still walking
But I can’t really tell how long
For I see the same shade of sky and trees
No clues on this same color scheme

How long was I imagining?

With this grey-ish thing I can’t tell..
Reflections maybe might speak then
But the sky is no mirror to look at if I get aged walking
And the road is smooth still for no automobiles running
What seem ancient with the same grey-ish scene?

How long was I imagining?

Still dark, still grey-ish, still alone in the scene…
Oh, but the trees changed, the trees stands for centuries
I can tell with its wide branches and leaves falling
No slender, but heavily trunks are hardly standing still
That told me I was imagining for a century

Or
Centuries maybe…
1.1k · Sep 2016
Distraction
NvrMnd Sep 2016
Move that body
Use that mind
Get yourself busy
With whatsoever
May it be wise
Or foolish
It doesn’t really matter
That’s just how we survive
We only need
A little distraction
In this lonely life.
NvrMnd Oct 2015
This place gets old
Stained walls,
Broken roads..
Surrounded, crowded..
Still, familiar..
Only familiar
Something's different
The scent?
The people? You?
Ah, No more you...

Your walk,
How you look..
More certain..
Different from what I've known
Is it change?
Is it the clock?
That keeps ticktocking
And every tick is a step
Taking you away
Far from me..

Time changes everything
Wait, no, no..
Time leads us..
To 'who we're suppose to be'
We don't change..
In process of getting to know
We discover,
This life
This place
Ourselves.
Sorry, I can't describe it myself clearly how I think we're not changing.. I believe that we're suppose to be the person we are now.. Whatever we're going through is a step to self discovery, we don't change, everything is in there, inside of us living from the very start of one's life.
968 · Oct 2016
Waves at Sundown
NvrMnd Oct 2016
~
As the day starts full of love and hope
Sun shines so bright not to feel woe
Vibrant flowers tickle her sight
Saying everything will be alright

Sweet cold wind touches her lips
To make her smile and save from grief
‘Cause he knows how precious her kind
Even how much she demeans her divine

Priceless laughter that he hears seldom
Inviting everyone to sing the psalm
Just when the sun turned to blue
Her dazzling soul also gone its hue

Afraid he was when the sun goes down
Witnessing her painted happiness waning out
And all was left are waves of her feelings, surging,
Still stirring yet welcomed to forever reside in him.
I wrote this to describe each days I am hopeful to have a beautiful day ahead. There are times that were really, really great but at the end of the day as I would close my eyes to rest, pictures of that beautiful day flashes and slowly vanishes into nothingness and it makes me feel blue. I thought of my life as pointless so I search for more meaningful days. I hope and most of us hope to find more, we’re all struggling to seek… jump to one place to another then abandon the place we thought we’re not belong to… we hurt people also we hurt ourselves. Then I realized maybe I am making things complicated finding what’s can’t be found. Because every day, every person we meet, every moment is something to be grateful for, nothing more to seek. And God who we abandoned million times are always there waiting for us to come back and reside with him. I know I am not yet fully fit to be with someone so kind and good, even not sure if I deserve the greatest love but I am here trying my best to be.
968 · Oct 2015
Storm
NvrMnd Oct 2015
Woke up with
the sound of
Strong cold wind
Dark grey cloud's abyss
Never makes me sad
Instead I've felt the bliss
Like silence in a sunny day
For once got myself feel myself
And love myself
Embraced with the
Great disastrous storm.
Storm strikes again, its nature's great disaster but it brought different kind of feeling to me..
I love its sound, the rain and the wind together.. it's music to my soul.

..Though still praying that it doesn't cause so much disaster to my country.
962 · Nov 2016
A matter less
NvrMnd Nov 2016
Thought it would be easier,
Keeping everything less
Less thinking
Less talking
Less engaging
Less moving
It makes me less weary,
Less lonely
But also
Less happy
Less warm
And less alive


At first, a matter less seems fine
but as I go on it makes me more...

More dead....
960 · Jul 2016
Try Killing the Spider
NvrMnd Jul 2016
-

*A spider in a vessel of silver stones
Naively fighting for what he knew is right
Philosophies against philosophies
Happiness over comfort
Both are true in different points of view
But the majority in his community
Have agreed to one view:
"**** the fire that burns the known culture!"
-The silly spider that seizes an invincible flame-
None of them understand he’s only against himself
Sinking in his delusions until awakens by the truth
To never ever sell his dreams for a velvet thing
Or he’ll be a cold eight-legged silver stone
That lies dead before his known death,
He sees how hard it is to be the only
Opposing the rules of the dynasty
But it is the fire in his dreams
That hunts for genuine bliss
Amidst the frozen world
Of the lifeless spiders,
Is the reason why he’s burning,
To keep alive until the end of his search.
959 · Sep 2015
What to do?
NvrMnd Sep 2015
I tried to go out
Be a friend, make new friends
But the more I engaged my self to people
The more I feel alone and lonely.
I don't want to describe it as depression but shame it is and it's getting real serious.
911 · Feb 2017
Little Voices
NvrMnd Feb 2017
~
Each letter I laid
Has its own little voice,

And together they sing
To be heard by yours

.
very anxious talking
874 · Mar 2016
Peace
NvrMnd Mar 2016
-
*Days,
Infinite as ocean
I’m chasing
The same shadows of the sky
Only waiting
For death to ease my mind

Rain,
Will be coming in time
I hope to catch the very first drop
And I'll be dancing
With the sound of a thunder,
Let the joy pour through my eyes...

And those cold tears on my cheeks
Will be good signs
That peace is coming to mine.
867 · Feb 2016
Running in Circles
NvrMnd Feb 2016
~

I wish I was in a Box

At least there are Corners

Where I can Hide to.
852 · Sep 2015
Tears of a Man
NvrMnd Sep 2015
A mad man in our house makes me sick, but when he cries, i feel the pain that made him sick.
This man seems tough and always mad but deep in his heart he just wants to be love.
816 · Feb 2017
Me to myself
NvrMnd Feb 2017
~
*It’s time to let go,
Time to rest,
Time to sleep,
And time to dream again.
808 · Apr 2017
Nothingness
NvrMnd Apr 2017
From what I’ve known
I have one goal

FREEDOM

I worked so hard
To end my sentence

Though I’ve won the war
And thought I am at last a victor

Yet it doesn’t feel like liberation
Until I realized

I never knew what
Freedom really means.
Thought things will be different
Now that I accomplished something
But all I feel is emptiness

I have to free myself from myself.
(First of ten)

-I kinda feel lost in this new format of HP.-
799 · Sep 2015
How much will you bet?
NvrMnd Sep 2015
Once I thought
...
The more you give love
The more you receive love


But I am wrong
It doesn't happen to all

Some stories
...
The more they give love
The more they suffer in love

...
So how much will you bet?
**Is it worth giving the most for love?
How ready are we to be in love?

Are you willing to give the most for love? You could be the happiest or you could be hurt the most?

Are we prepared to accept the wage of love? It could be unfair but we could learn the most important lesson being in love....Forgiveness.
780 · Apr 2017
Bewilder
NvrMnd Apr 2017
Standing beyond guards,
twisted bars and shards

With shattered knuckles
and broken ankles

Dilated eyes in the face of elusiveness

Where is freedom in hollowness?

Spinning round in vast emptiness

Conceptions, misconceptions
mixing in wild motions

Surrounded by scented candles
and flowers posing birth or perhaps death

....Fainted in bewilderment....

I'm just confused at the moment but slowly getting my mind in shape again.
(second)
776 · Jan 2017
POTION
NvrMnd Jan 2017
Maybe I don’t really want to be happy
Not just like what you mean
Oh, I find it so hard to fall in love
With a happy ending story

And I’ll tell you, I’m already in love!
And maybe this means happiness too
But this might sound wrong for you
Maybe even crazy I am to you

Cause, I am strangely deeply in love

WITH SADNESS, I AM ALREADY CAUGHT

Intoxicated by its beauty, and a black sapphire to me

In which I can’t and never ever want to escape.
HONORS TIME, DESTINY AND DEATH
747 · Aug 2015
What's Up
NvrMnd Aug 2015
And so I cry sometimes
When I' m lying on bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from top of my lungs
What's going on?
Lyrics from the song What' Up
By 4 non blondes
730 · Mar 2016
Hope
NvrMnd Mar 2016
-
Now
all I think about
is you
and
some hope,

Hope
that tomorrows
will have
different
colors
.
730 · Dec 2015
Midnight Poetry
NvrMnd Dec 2015
~

Burnt **** and liquor
Bitter taste and dry throat
My kind of flavor every night
Under the blue stars
Clinging on a velvet night sky

Smoked eyes staring at the dark night
Drawing forms of unfamiliar feeling
But no constellation of a Lover seen
Same patterns every single night
My vision of you is surreal

Cold feet lay straight on a roof top
Covered with a pair of grey socks
And there's one magic moment
Shooting stars surprise the lonely heart
Teary eyed at the majesty of the night

Now sitting on the edge
Spending all my cards
Watching for the sunset
**** all the colors of the day
For another midnight poetry


~
722 · Feb 2017
HERE
NvrMnd Feb 2017
I may be gone for a little while,

Maybe for a little while longer

but I will always come back here,

here where my poems live,

here where my heart finds comfort

here where my soul laid to rest,


here

                  here,

where


**I MET YOU.....
to all the poets here
721 · Jun 2016
I am a Poem
NvrMnd Jun 2016
My body is a story
Of pain and pleasure
Slipping through time
Yet keep sailing away
From oblivion
the last stanza
707 · Jan 2017
12:45 PM
NvrMnd Jan 2017
The Sun stood still
Burning the people underneath
Making them lifeless
And now, all is but a silence

                                 Except me,

There’s a noise inside my head
Making my heart beat steadfast
And the heat of the sun couldn’t make it stop,
Too loud and too strong to take my life.
698 · May 2016
Lonely Wanderess
NvrMnd May 2016
Barefooted in the middle of nowhere
Where the lost can never be found
By anyone whose eyes were only caught by fancy shoes
I was wondering if someone will notice the barefooted
Stepping on thorns and stones
Every night in that nowhere there's the lonely wanderess
With eyes closed and ears open
Enough to lead her to the wonder of nowhere
Where the music is slowly playing
That keeps the trees sway in sweet rhythm
And leaves slowly falling, touching the lonely wanderess
Until finally hit the ground and withered
Reminding an old friend who once she walked with
And the lonely wanderess wasn't waiting for someone
She doesn’t want to be found nor saved by anyone
Whose heart withered in a long walk to nowhere
The lonely wanderess is afraid to even take another step
Thinking she’ll never find herself without getting wounded
Not the road she’s frightened but the thorns she imagined
But she chose to die trying to find something she can’t see
Darkness is that nowhere and she’s less happy but less sad
Carrying nothing but less of everything.
697 · Sep 2016
Lonely Saves the Lonely
NvrMnd Sep 2016
-
*How could I see the fire in your soul?
And let hidden from their eyes
How could I hear your emotion?
Like whispering wind
And kept silent from their ears
I wonder how I feel you,
Why your ghost feels so alive to me?
Your melody twirls livelier than a young girl
Skin glows brighter than a new-born
Breathe warmer than a summer sun
So young but so old to caress me expertly
Like you’re dwelling inside eternally,
Moving from time to time
From one body to another,
Like an endless poetry
That saves every lonely person
Stuck under the blank night
With no moon and no stars
Merely looking to an end...

a light,
a hope,
or death
691 · Feb 2017
Wake me up
NvrMnd Feb 2017
~
                *I can hear someone’s footsteps

Lingering around my frozen body
                        
                 Would you please help me…


I know this is just a dream
With melodic tune
Enchanting me to stay asleep
Uttering to relish this reverie
And never wake up…

                    He caught me easily

Trapped in this delusion

               His beauty overwhelmed me


A dream that seems so real
That I’d choose to stay asleep,
A dream that’s so wonderful
That I’d let him drown me with his charm,
A dream that lured me…

             I’d trade my reality,

Light over darkness

                      Convenience over danger


This dream is overruling
Offering every goods I wish to possess
Persuading that I wouldn't want to wake up
I’d lose him or I’d lose myself is the only option he gave
And I’m paralyzed, and throttled, unable to make a decision


Wake me up

Before I'd surrender my last heart beat
Yes, I’m panting, hardly gasping
Begging for air, I need to breathe
To think clearly that he's just a fantasy,
A fallacy that I can’t live within eternally...

                 I’m sinking in this sweet perfection

Slowly taking me to somewhere

          So dark and cold and mysteriously captivating…


Yes I wanted to come,
I can see him in the dark, grinning
So strange I’m not afraid, not a bit
Enjoying the pleasure of being half dead,
The comfort of serenity is undeniably alluring


                 Yet.... half dead means I'm still half alive,

Aware of the truth

                     That he’d never become real


I know.... this is just a dream
With melodic tune
Enchanting me to stay asleep
Uttering to relish this reverie
And never wake up…

                     ....but I can hear someone’s footsteps, a hope

Lingering around my frozen body

                 Would you please help me…



I wanted to wake up.
please wake me up
670 · Aug 2017
Diamond Moon
NvrMnd Aug 2017
And there she was
Invisible, like a ghost
Watching a man from afar
Cryptic, like the moon
On a dreaded night..
in progress
657 · Aug 2015
abundance
NvrMnd Aug 2015
Though seems little,
time is an infinite system
you can't consume.
NvrMnd Dec 2018
we've met somewhere in a magical place
a misty dream where our souls dance together
we've got drunk by our connection
electrified by in-explainable energy
that suddenly explode to nothingness
and i wonder if you got hurt like i do
got lost in a grey forest without trees and flowers  to talk to
got your eyes bleed from crying because you miss me like i miss you.
643 · Nov 2015
Classic Love
NvrMnd Nov 2015
~                      
*While majority is in love
With this prefabricated world
A fancy place some wish they live
Where mainstream music is fixed

And there is me caving in
With old cities and old beats
Stories it hold I've fallen with
I wish my love would be in here

Classic love I must believe
Timeless beauty it'll promise
In this new world I hope we'll meet
Where mainstream love doesn't exist.
640 · Feb 2016
Losing Ink
NvrMnd Feb 2016
Letters, unwritten words
Papers, empty spaces
Waiting for the matrimony to create poetry
But how when I'm Losing Ink

I remember the time it's full
Filled with dreams, tears and fears
Now the blood of misery is diluting
And I'm Losing Ink

I should be glad, but how could I be
When the only medium I used to have is depleting
And I can’t lay my words on canvas
I know I'm Losing Ink

Empty, floating on a galaxy of being half
Undefined feeling, making no capacity to fill the cartridge
Week by week I’m getting weak
*And every day, I can feel I’m Losing Ink
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