I'm sorry you have to feel this way
I'm sorry if I can't do anything
I'm sorry if this will be just another poem
I'm sorry if your life had been just a sad song

Friends can comfort you
Cheer for you all the way
But the truth is
At the end of the day,
You only have yourself

No, you don't understand!
Please stop lying to me!
My life is ******-up
And God does not care
Please let me be!
You're only saying that to ease
The pain that’s been killing me ever since
But let me tell you
None of those fancy words
Can ease the pain and misery
No one can fight these demons,
They are strong and they want me
My mind is severely flooded
And one die I am going to drown.

Graduation day is only months away
And i'm somewhere between:
"Oh I'm gonna miss all my classmates"
And
"I'll never gonna see your stupid faces ever again, halleluiah!"

Sometimes I wonder how will I die
Will it be from accident? Sickness? Immense pain?
Will it come as swift as an arrow
So I won't feel anything?
Is it gonna happen in my 20s, 30s, or 40s, perhaps?
Or will it be from old age?
Of suffering in my death bed?
Regretting all the things I never did
But could have done?