A mood as dark as a winters midnight
Haltingly adrift, she is rudderless
Bound to a coastal route
As she nears the quay, she cries out
But emits no sound
As strong currents
Guide her soul
To deeper depths
And perils
Where light has no importance
A salient angle away and afar
She collapses in upon herself, like the Black Hole
Black does not describe its murkiness
She is lost to humanity

the world is getting worse once again theres war
iraq once again they fixed once before
beheadings taking place innocent getting killed
once again once more blood is getting spilled

violence in the cities everywhere you go
will it ever end we dont really know
the world is getting worse not like it used to be
gone now as the world where everyone was free.

today i saw a row of schoolchildren at an airport
observing the beehive from the outside
they have never touched the skyline
they have never been inside
they live on the outskirts of this city
their lives are a contrast to mine

i could see the wonder painted on their faces
they were dreaming
in their private minds
they had become more than school children  
they were a part of the city
they had a seat on the plane

I accept to stand
unseen
on the sidewalk,
on the river bank.

Random shadow for
playful drawings in the sand,
silent stir to birth ethereal fulness,
playground
to be left behind.

Hollowed.
Vacant.
A window-sill
for passing songs.
A borrowed
beating heart.

I accept to stand,
in scattered craving
for the wind
beyond.

[05.09.13]

Wherever I am,

Whenever it is,

I have to imagine,

My make believe dreams.

It might seem silly,

But this dream world,

Is interesting,

It's something to do with my time,

Rather than nothing.


I imagine loads of things,

Like you and me,

All under my control,

Because it's not real,

And only I know.

I imagine life now,

And life later on,

Not all of it is happy,

As in reality there's drama,

So the drama in my dream world,

Could seem like a possibility.


I imagine being with my friends,

Through good times,

And bad moments,

I imagine my future,

However I like.


They may sometimes be realistic,

By being dramatic to extremes,

But they will never be real,

Especially the parts,

Of you and me.


I imagine things as simple,

As spending time with you,

Not always over exciting,

But in casual moods,

Apart from you would be there,

So that would make my mood,

Soar high in the air.


Anytime spent with you,

Would be time well spent,

Even if there was tragedy,

You being there would be better,

You'd cheer me up a lot,

And take my pain away.


I imagine what would happen,

If things between us were different,

Imagine how these thoughts would change,

My love would stay the same,

But hopefully my droning,

Wouldn't stay.


Maybe I would still feel similar,

Let's face it, I would,

Even if you chose me,

I'd be far from second best,

You already treat me well,

But everyone else you treat better,

Without you even realising.


Whenever I am with you,

My troubles fly away,

It's like they never existed,

It's like you love me anyway,

But whenever your gone,

I realised you've led me on,

Even if you didn't mean to.


I can't say,

Don't you go away,

Because you've already gone,

It's been a while now,

And you've never left my mind,

Thoughts of you won't leave my head,

It's like you're pulling on my heart,

Even though you're nowhere near.


Another thing I can not say,

Is to ask you to come back,

As you're not here to listen,

Yes I can always message you,

But you are growing bored,

I'm not even with you,

But you can't be bothered with me anymore,

Why did you even bother with me,

Now you have just left.


I can't say you shouldn't have played with my heart,

Just to then go and leave,

Because after all,

You did nothing,

I just had to fall.


I imagine that one day,

Maybe it could all work out,

You should know what I'm talking about,

You should know what to give back,

I don't just want to see your face,

I want your love as well,

But all I can get right now,

Is to see your face,

And just that makes me smile,

But now what is there for me to do,

When I won't see you for so long?

Your eyes fixed on the screen
and mine on you.
You're watching a story
And I am, too.


F.Z.N

Tea served up to the masses;
cannot function without it.
Tea, the reviver of mankind.