I cry
I fall down
I feel pain

You fill my mind with words of vain
You fill my heart with words of love

I fake a laugh
I force a smile
I put on a facade for the while

Until you hit that off switch
Until you decide I've had enough

I'll obey your words
Your every command
For I am only a machine
To do with as you please

I can break this wooden mask you dress me with
This wooden masks filled with an array of emotions
Emotions I am told to feel

The cracks make their way threw the wooden mask
A Jolt of sparks
A thud on the ground
A face of real feelings

I feel pain when I fall down
I get mad
I cry
I bleed if I fall

Because I've only been Human
Human all the while.

Love is awful
Love is the worst
it will consume your heart
and then make it burst
it will control your thoughts, you speech and your actions
if your not careful, it could become a fatal attraction
the worst part of love is that when it is gone
your left with this feeling, and you don't know whats wrong
you stuck inside your head, and you think your life is ending
but little do you know, its only just beginning
Soon enough, the black curtain will rise
the darkness will fade, and you'll open your eyes
you realize that your okay, that you didnt die
Some tears were shed, and some hearts were shattered
but your okay, and thats all that really matters

People say they aren't racist and thats a flat out lie
I mean they no longer separate our kind
but they act like color doesn't survive
these people are color blind
they don't admit that I'm  different
and I'm tired of it
people take of your mask
and show your face
we are still people but we are people of a different race

You remembered.

Somehow with keeping up
With all of your
"Friends"
You remembered
That my sister
Wasn't doing too well
And that
I
Wasn't doing too well

But I knew
By your voice
And movement
That you
Honestly didn't care
That you just
Wanted to seem
Friendly

And all these
Small acts of
friendliness
Are the things
That keep making fall
When I've almost
Gotten over
You.

-e.w.

The only time
I'm ever even
Close
To being happy
Is when I'm with
You

Because you're my
Best friend
And I couldn't imagine
Not having you
By my side
Because you're the only one
That I can
Relate to
And trust
And you're the only one
Who knows
That this depression
Has taken over
My life

But you can
Make me
Smile
And laugh
So hard
Because I can
Completely be myself
Around you
And that's the best
Feeling
In the world

I am so glad
I met you
Just 3 years ago
Because you are
The main reason
I'm still
Here.

-e.w.

i don't i don't i don't

but i am curious
and i want to know

what does it feel like to fall in love with another soul
to know their deepest secrets but still love them
and see the worst parts about them
but that only magnifies the good

what does it feel like when it's 3 am and you can't sleep
and not because you're lonely
but because you're not anymore

what does it feel like to become so vulnerable
that you would let another soul cut open your chest
and let them see everything you've kept hidden

what does it feel like to trust someone so much
you'd let them hold your heart in their hands?

i don't know

but what i do know is everything fades to gray
and people can ruin things and make mistakes

so what does it feel like when it all breaks
when the person you love stabs your heart
and they swear they didn't mean to do it

when they look at you and you look at them
but all you see is boredom seeping through their eyes
and they don't want to kiss you anymore
and the hand they hold yours with feels limp and lifeless

what does it feel like when trust finally turns into a knife
and the person you thought would never hurt you the most
would stab you over and over with all of their lies

what does it feel like when the person you love
begins to grow increasingly distant from you
and you can't do anything but watch
and just hope that maybe you'll get over it soon?

what does it feel like?

i don't want to fall in love

i don't i don't i don't

i got the feeling
i was losing control
felt like i drank
too much wine
or had too much caffeine
in my bloodstream

the walls felt like
they were crashing
down all around me
there was too much air
but i couldn't breathe

you were like
a panic attack
coming on

i hated
every
minute
of it.