Stronger then I thought.

Sorry for those nights when your eyes cried and you couldn't think of one reason to smile
You didn't deserve to be left alone with your thoughts which were attacking your conscious and making your insides bleed  
The feeling of fire burning in your veins is from that last conversation you had with the love of your life
And I'm sorry that you can't forget any of the details of what you've been through but your life is not over, you can not give up.

Or maybe I loved him because I was at my worst and he still thought I was perfect.

Is every mistake forgivable?

Dont worry if your having hard times

Just remember

That we all fall before we rise.

I'm the white spaces between every single word.

He was a simple minded boy
Who didnt quit understand poetry or the dangerously poetic girl who made thunderstorms only look like rain

I've never Been this angry
And so closed off from the world
And ive never been so terrified of what could come next

I can even feel the distance far away
When where texting.

In a crowd I'm lost in it
Staring at each and every individual human being
Knowing that each and every one of them have there own lives, there own stories to tell.

And if he leaves me, I'll die.

Rereading old messages wishing we could go back to that Beginning stage of the relationship where everything is new and our love was pure.

I miss you
Even when your sitting right here in my face.

Once you entirely give yourself to someone they'll start taking you for granted.

The saddest part is when the one you want
Wants someone else.

I don't want the memory to disappear

I just don't want to think about it.

I would love to explore the world

But only if im hand in hand

With someone i love

& that would mean this was all worth it.

You tell me all you feel is pain

But you must have forgotten

That sunshine Only comes after the

Rain ♥

Come to me

In my dreams

Don't ever leave

For you will see

My love for you, is forever deep

I hate when music conjures up unwanted emotions.

Our days are numbered
The clock is ticking, we are not getting any younger
I'm younger then I'll ever be but I'm still hidden behind closed doors while the adventures outside those doors wait for me,
How about you break down those doors,
Give me to the light above and allow me to explore the sky like a shooting star

My feelings change faster then the days go by

Getting your heart broken feels like a nightmare that you actually have to live in.

I can't
I can't
I can't
I can't
I cant
I can't
I can't



(Try Again)


I can.

"You're  too young!"


                             "You're  too old"



"You're  too wild!"
  
      
                                        "You're  super boring!"


You're  always gonna be "too much" of something to someone. Don't let them make you afraid to be yourself!

This  isnt mathematics
im not trying to test you
Forget who wronged you before you, I swear to you I won't ever hurt you
I know your heart hurts and mines does too
But please open it back up and let me love you

The worst part is when you go to sleep
And I'm awake for hours
Waiting to hear your voice again.

There's this ache I get in my chest
Mixed with pain sadness and anger
It's an un welcome visitor

Every so often it comes
And it wont permanently go away


It comes when you ignore me
Or when I receive very bad news
It loves to hurt me
It's the secret agenda  


It feeds off my tears and heart ache
It possesses my insides
And tries to take away my faith

The un welcome visitor is my downfall
But I won't let it win...

The pain is my only reminder of your existence.

The moon glowed in the direction of the path in the woods
I should have walked that way

But instead i followed you.

Theres a BIG difference between being alive, and being dead inside.

Run warm water
Set colorful candles around the tub
Dim the lights in the bathroom
Lay in the tub and forget everything
Forget the pain
Sorrow
Sadness
Heartbreak
Because none of this matters at this time
tend to yourself
Clear your mind
Body
And settle your soul
And if someone in your house calls your name
Ignore them
Because this is your time

Kills you mentally
Your no longer the person you use to be
It's like someone new has a residence inside of you,
Yeah your stronger, but that new strength is what's blocking you away from the world


What Doesnt **** You ,
Scars you for life
The vicious memories are bunches of blocks in your head,
visions that you will not release,
Pain that you will forever indure


What Doesn't  **** You
Should have killed you,
Because now you cheated death, and now death is what you've become.

You hide behind those auburn locks around your face
To shield yourself from the cruel world
You walk with your head held low and flat shoes, you wouldnt dare wear heels because you'd hate to cause any attention on yourself with the annoying clinking of the bad choice of shoes so you wear long sweaters and dark colors because you want the people who do see you to only see darkness, the color of your soul is what you call it
and you honestly believe that, you love to live in the shadows and one day you even laughed at yourself bitterly for loving your loneliness
You've forgotten that you were in public when you laughed and someone was watching you the entire time
He saw the way your eyes lit up when you smiled and he loved your deep dimples that shaped your face, he figured he could stare at your green doe like eyes for the rest of his life and he began to daydream about running his fingers through your hair
When you caught him staring you quickly looked away and cursed at yourself but his smile deepened noticing you cursed, he loved the idea of you having a feisty side, he liked you so much that he decided to take a seat next to you and that's when everything changed
The fact that he thought you were beautiful was incredible to you and like magic you no longer thought  the world was that cruel anymore since there were still good people like him In it,
You no longer walked in  flats anymore you began to think they were boring and out of season, you often opted for some pretty heels that clinked when you walked because you liked feeling like a supermodel walking the runway, you began to love your red locks of hair, you even decided to go to the hair salon and let them give you beach waves
Now your hair flows beautifully down your back.
Your fashion sense went from boring to fashionista every single day when you left your house you were wearing something new and gorgeous
You loved your new look, and you also deeply loved the new boy who brought all of this confidence out of you.

I feel so good
so in love with you

But after you leave
I feel like you don't exist anymore, you were just a void or

Something.

I lay in bed at night thinking ...

And thinking

Thinking

Thinking and thinking

And ****

I think to much.

Why do we make promises we do not keep?
Why do we anger loved ones?

Why are we all looking for love?

Why are we always sad?

Why are we all angry?

Why don't we see life's purpose?

Why ??

Because we are all Human.

I want this to work
I want you to be a permanent person in my life
I want you to change me to be better, I want to learn from you while loving you with every piece of me, I also want to receive the same amount of love right back

But what I don't want is to be the only one trying,
Being the only one wanting this to be something you don't want it to be
I don't wanna swim out in the middle of the ocean with you in this relationship only to be left alone to drown in the middle of it.

Fall in love with words,
not the Person who's saying them.

I wish this bed with white sheets
Was our home
And you'd be my protector.

The forest was dark and shallow
As I strolled through it
Nature pulling me deep in

There was not one
Injured bone in my body
but I still felt broken

I heard a loud cracking noise
To the left of my direction
A stick broken in half of some sort

I stopped walking to listen because I heard it again
And darkness was no longer in my vision anymore
But there standing in front of me
Was a 9 foot tall white wolf
With piercing green eyes...

(TBC)

No matter your situation or circumstance you cannot stop living.
You've only got one life,
One shot to make yourself happy.
Why not do it?

You all inspire me to write and you excite me with your creative minds
But when my excited fingers reach my keyboard
I think of nothing to write about
The feeling is nothing but depressing.

Forgive me for I have loved so many
I forgot the most important
Which was myself.

My favorite hello

&

My hardest goodbye.

When I'm with you
I get lost in my stupid feelings
And loose all my common sense
It's a love
Hate thing.