You mean nothing and everything to me.

While sitting in my room
Only watching tv shows
I've come to the realization that they
All had the same subliminal message
they showed me that some of the people closest to you could be your enemies
Like your friends and even family

I've come to the realization that even a certain light could be a disguise of darkness
I realized that this bottle of ***** and these shot glasses of patron
Only numb this seemingly temporary pain
And could literally **** up my life

I hope you all someday come to the realization that nothing is really what it seems
So don't make a temporary decision to fulfil a desire for your demons
Cause all you'll get in return is a lifetime of regret

And I left you even though my bones, heart and soul didn't quit agree with my actions and I stay up every single night with a bottle of something alcoholic by my bed and a full pack of cigarettes under my pillow just in case I do fall asleep by an accident and dream of you, then I can jolt awake with the realization that I left you and I can drown my stomach with so much alcohol that I drink myself into a drunken paralyzation so I can't run to you in the middle of the night so you can make it all better

I'm so tired of thinking of the reasons why you did it
I'm done with blaming myself for what you did and putting myself down and shaming myself thinking that I wasn't good enough for you
I want my heart to know that I was to good for you and you knew that so you cheated to make yourself feel better.

Why do you ask for brutal honesty
But turn ice cold when I give it to you?

Your quiet but your mind is loud
Soaking up every little thing you hear or see
Studying and carefully concentrating on the creatures
The creatures functioning around you
Your the one that hides out in the big parties
Taking up the wonderful space in the corner
Taking photograpic memories of everyone in the room
Laughing drinking and forgetting there problems
You watch
And you silently wish that was you


But you have no idea
That being different is the best thing you can be
And you should feel bad for them
Cause they're not different
In fact they're all the same

I knew it was true love
when we were sitting together on your house's roof top
while it drizzled and you told me that when where together it feels like where one soul split into two bodies ...

Arguing back means you love them

Not arguing back simply means ur done fighting for a love that just isn'there anymore.

He said "I Love You." Then he left

I remember when he said
"I'd Never Hurt You." Then he broke my heart

Told me he will stay committed.
" Then why are you still talking to your ex? "

You said you'd love me

But that was another lie.

You hit me
You said you'd never hurt me.

You left me,
You promised you'll never leave

You moved on
But you told me
" you were mine, and I was yours

forever. "


You Told Me Lies.