You are
an irresistible
heartbreak.

(I drench my hands in the blues
of your gloom; we'll be long gone
by the time the train of thought
ever leaves your bedroom)

You don't love me.

That i can accept.

But i cant accept that you ran and hid
while I sat in bed and wept.

I cant accept that all this time,
I've been longing for only you
and that all this time you let me believe
that maybe you longed for me too.

I cant accept that i'm afraid to meet your eyes,
for fear you might see through me
and you let me believe that in your eyes,
I would always be.

I cant accept that after all this time,
I still cant cry in front of you,
for fear that my emotions might be too repulsive,
and push me further away is all you'll do.

I cant accept that after all these years,
you're letting everything we had fade away,
especially because you're the one that said we'd always have each other, and that you'll always stay.

I cant accept that you wont talk to me,
when all i wanna do is talk to you.
and i cant accept that you don't even know how i feel,
cause maybe if you did,
you'd love me too.

Don't fall in love with me.
I will tear you
to bits and pieces
with love, affection, and
poetry.

I'll tell you how
beautiful you look,
and when you ask
"How do I look beautiful"
I'll say
"Well darling, I must get going now."

I'll leave you breathless
in kisses
because you'll never want
to stop but
I'm already in my car
ready to go.

Don't fall in love with me
because I'll become
a female version of
John Green.

I'll write you poetry and
make you the love interest
in my novels,
but there's a reason why I
never finish anything.

I'll fall out of love,
love is boring
and when you
fall in love with me
I'll become uninterested
because I can't chase you
anymore.

It's all in the chase,
because I like getting
what I deserve
but when I get it,
it's not what I wanted.

it was nice of you to
say you loved me but
it would have been
nicer if you meant it
it was kind of you to
tell me you cared but
it would have been
kinder if you had been
there when i needed you
it was sweet of you to
say i was yours but
it would have been sweeter
if you had kept me

It hurts,