Evil in my head twisting around
Did I drown
    Or did I wet my feet in ******
Blood pouring
  Down the stairway to Heaven
         And into the mouth of an entity
A thirst so unquenchable
     Its no wonder I tend to breathe the other direction
     Because a hint of moisture on my breath would be a warrant for my death
             Dying of thirst
Its not new but the truth doesnt fade
    It keeps on flowing until you cover up its fangs

I cannot put into words
how beautiful your eyes are.
I don't even think
a photograph can capture
its depth.
When the morning light
hits it,
it becomes this
translucent brown
that will hypnotize you
into thinking
it's a portal to another world.

When you kiss me hurriedly,
without anticipation,
out of the blue,
and just the right kind of hard.
It makes me dizzy, and makes me
want you more.
And makes it hard to believe
I have you in my life.

We have all the right reasons to break up
but we never did.
We sacrificed a lot for each other.
And it always got me asking
if it will be worth it.
But god I can't imagine breathing another breath
the moment you let go of me.
My heart sinks everytime
I imagine myself
without you.
My heart shatters,
my heart collapses
and runs out of blood to pump.

We argue a lot
because of our differences.
The strength we have for us
may not be understood by everyone.
We get a lot of **** by
trying to be together.
And I thank you for
being my rock
when I get weak.
All we have is us.

this scroll has been
erased
blankened by neglect
its anger has washed clear
the ink that once flowed
across
its parchment pages
those who pass it by
fail to see
the d y i n g
words.

where is the pen
that will embody
the white space
once again?

Only the open sky
Could take my wings
Mold them into essences of purity

I was forged within
Rapid rivers of forsaken modesty
Left alone and sore below
Because my insecurities undressed me
And bedded me savagely
Before the watchful eye of the moon
The minds glowing aphrodisiac

As feathered hate falls from blackened flight
A finger is raised in denial of sunlight
A symbol of woebegone sensuality

depression is something
so many must deal with
must try to control

you don't lose control
and become depressed
you become depressed
and try not to lose control.

if you stand on that edge
of a high up cliff
to a pit of black
at a bottom you can't see

one foot dangling over
one foot planted on the cliff
one gust of wind
one little blow
can push you back over

that is depression.

holding your hand over a flame
you know it's there
you feel the burning
but you try to fight through
to pull your hand away
to stop the searing in your mind

that is depression.

swimming in the ocean
with slices of flesh
gone from your body
the salt stinging all the time
barely a head above water
a wave pulling you under
when you least expect it

that is depression.

pulling yourself back
from the cliff's edge
snatching your hand away
from the torrid flame
propelling yourself to shore
from the deluge of water

that is taking back control.

Misery is the wanting but inability to smile with you.

having very nearly bumped noses
do you think it was fate?
or is this just one of those things?
"Sorry" our first words, seems destined...

They come to haunt on an evening as this
when thunders roar fall endless rains
windowpanes moan in frosted kiss
awaken within long lost pains!

They don’t bear me a name or a face
the massless aches ***** like thorn
oozing out from what hidden place
on an evening as this they’re born!

In the blowing gust rain’s beelike drones
shatter my heart’s all gathered peace
mess the mind feed upon bones
leave me broken on an evening as this!

The pains don’t bear me a name or a face
don’t tell what hurts for what I miss
but ***** out all gathered happiness
rain my eyes on an evening as this!

he told me every night to close the window
but I just wanted it open in case I needed someone to hear me scream