By:D.E.T

I remember when I was a member of happiness
But what happen is
Someone pulled me down into this sadness
And madness

And all I've got is
Pain press against my chest
And I suggest you to keep your mess
Out of my chest

Cuz all you have given me is stress
Don't tell me that you love me
When all you do is shove me

You're nothing but a hypocrite
Cuz you for you everything seems great
But can't you see this hate

So, don't come telling me everything is great
When it ain't

Just shut for a moment
Cuz I need to think about my emotions
Cuz I'm losing focus
How do you think I feel

That what I fear
Is coming near

You know it gets so sad when you look at your reflection

Asking you a question
Like why did I chose the wrong direction
I just miss myself

By:D.E.T

Forgive me
For not being perfect
Or worth it
Forgive me for my mistakes
That made you get the shakes
And aches

Just know I wish I could leave all behind me
So, one could find me
Cuz all the part of past
Is nothin' but thrash
That should be burning in the ash

Sorry, mom for not passing
My words to somebody
When all I felt was like a nobody
Sometimes all I ask for
Was one word
To make me get inspired
So, it could make me wanna go higher
But all I felt was tire
Yes, mother I admire
You for your hard work

But I don't think you see my point
Sometimes I'm needin' a hug from you mom
To make me feel calm
Cuz can't you see this terror
In my eyes

Sometimes I feel like I am dying
Inside
But I hide it
Inside
You got me here trying
Out for crying
Cuz honestly I'm scared of drying

But still
I chill
Cuz I happen to remember when I was in the hospital
You fought to make things possible
While people declared me dead

Yeah, you stood there
In the hospital
Making things possible
And you were so, unstoppable

Yeah, you fought for my life
And line

It starts like a sliver
A small fragment of someone else's being
Slips into my skin
Sticking within the shallow foundation
A surface connection
Skin deep until left untreated
Allowed to seep
Building roots into my blood
Before long the wound has grown
Oozing and hot to the touch
It starts to invade
Inching its way to my core
My heart, my lungs
Now stained with its name
I breathe shallow breaths of clean air
Trying to cleanse my soul
I will heal
But scars remain.
A forced change my soul accepted.

He said he finds it odd,
That such pretty eyes could shed
So many tears.

I told him I find it strange,
That he found these stained eyes
Pretty.

I hear your foot steps. That's how I know your home.
If wasn't for that I would never know you're close.
You drum your fingers, that's how I know you're in front of me.
We don't talk at all at the table cause we're no longer how we used to be.
You hold your breath when we start arguing because you know what's about to come.
Don't worry, I won't yell and my energy to fight is already gone.
But you still keep your habit of pointing your finger just as you point out my flaws
But you know, even that is not like it was before.