I found the key
To being free
Easier said than done you see
The enemy
Looking at me
Through memories of past that won't let me be
Reality
Is so tricky
We can pick and choose what we see
Minds are finicky
Part of their beauty
Balancing being teacher and trainee

All so fleeting
Such a big rush
Your lips on mine making me blush

Quick as it came
So there it goes
You and I don't wanna get close

Magnificent
To be infinite
In the complexity
Of all that surrounds us

Desolating
I'm just existing
In the complexity
Of questioning everything

He holds me in ways so tender like new
Said my heart was all he wanted to purse 
i could see in your eyes your feelings were true
But I'm not in love with him 

You wiped away tears stained on my cheek
and made me feel safe at night when I sleep 
Helped me get through the days I was weak 
But I'm not in love with him 

You made my heart sing loudly with laughter 
sat next to me while we stargazed together
talked to me about dreams we would go after
But I'm not in love with him 

I felt your heart sink when you watched me cry
caressed my hair and whispered sweetie pie 
lost in my mind my thoughts were amplified 
But I'm not in love with him

It's almost as if we have no purpose in this universe

Digging inside ourselves for a reason to be

And so I'll drift among the stars that have dissipated long before my wishes could catch them falling

And ill try not to stumble as my feet dance to the vibrational rhythm of existence

Because no matter how small I feel I have loved the night sky to deeply to be fearful of the unexplained twilight

One time the inside of me was dead
only way to stop the jitters in my head
jitters forcing my heart to rip into shreds
Charging my pulse, forcing me to feel red  

One time the quite made me feel calm
Bruises slowly disappearing from my palm
The first time my breathing played like a song
Discovering the difference between what's right and  what's wrong

One time they said that I was too nice
they don't know my heart was once cold as ice
Experience comes with it's own special price
Your childhood would have been my paradise

One time I felt everyone else's pain
I saw how it moves through us like a chain
Fueling it's power through the dead right brain
Making ignorance a comfortable ball and chain

One time I screamed angry at the universe
Seems like being humane is a blessing and curse
Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse
we have normalized a society that should make you averse  

One time I realized it's all worth the fight
It's not so bad to be someone else's light
Despite all the hatred I'll stay polite
because losing your character means losing the fight

How can you not see the beauty surrounding
My own heart beating with natures low pounding
With oceans so vast they are too deep for sounding
And harmonized beings so angelic it's astounding

But nature has been used for Human exploitation
People lost sight and got obsessed with *******
They no longer can tune into the higher vibration
And faster then ever we're destroying our foundation  

Mother Earth is crying as she is disappearing
Too much damage that she has been enduring
No significant change yet to happen I am fearing
the dying of her abundance, in the end we are nearing