Daniela Marie

Daniela Marie Oct 2018

You didn't know why
It always felt off
Even after you said yes
it's fine you can touch

It comes right through you
almost without a trace
astral point of view
the girl with no face

No one explained
how your hearts changed
to break before you love
makes the mind deranged

#trouble #heart #love #break #emotion #mind

Daniela Marie Feb 2018

Gripped

There's something inside
That I cannot see
I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be

It grips me tightly
Words trapped in my throat
Intercepting the thoughts I later wrote

It says "why bother"
When no one else did
You're just so small and the world is so big

It says "what's the point"
You're so exhausted
Animosity burns within the tainted

I'm sorry to you
I'm sorry to me
I let out the bad for others to see

I tried to be good
By sharing a smile
But give an inch and they take a mile

Daniela Marie Feb 2018

Drifting

I fought
Alongside with people
Hungry to eradicate
Fragments
Of what they had been cheated

I lost
Admiration
For the beautiful corners
Meant to be found
By everyone
With a beating heart

I found
A string in the corner
Of the eye in my head
So I pulled
Endlessly
Until finally

I created
A hollow body
Lighter than air, drifting away
Immobilized and detached
From the anchor
Of sentiment

I lived
Carefully
Behind my nose
The hiding spot
From the light of eyes
Never to illuminate
My now hollow being

I'm scared
I've deceived myself
By escaping
In an act of self protection
Severing
The root of pain
I killed my tree of life

#life #emotions #emotion #feeling #feelings #self #reflect #youth #living #sad

Daniela Marie Dec 2017

Growing up

I'm in love with places I haven't seen
Haven't walked
Haven't felt the air on my skin

A yearning that won't stop
Since I was a little girl
Walking alone in the flowers
Suddenly aware of all of life's beauty
Before I could even comprehend it

There was something inside me that always knew

Now I am afraid
It will be forever lost
Passing time doesn' forgive
the curiosity of a naive heart

#naive #young #curious #life #reflection #sad #scared #searching

Daniela Marie Dec 2017

Your Typical Dysphoria

There's a knot in the base of my throat.
It plants itself and grows roots inside my lungs.
A thought escapes and the roots ****** against my chest and I'm struggling to breath.
My eyes blurred the world leaving me with distorted images that mix with bleeding colors.
I sit there frozen.
What is this body that leaves me numb?
I despise the thought of being another broken.
Why can't I make my thoughts look prettier?
I couldn't give it what it needed.
I searched for it in the exchanges of whispers as I laid my body down for the boys who wanted their turn.
I searched for it in the moon that illuminates my hair.
It was the only thing I could count on when I looked up.
I dreamt that it would take me in the purple clouds if I could just swing high enough.
Floating like a feather but my heart full and heavy from the moonlight.
But I haven't swung in so long and these roots keep growing.
Weighing my chest down more and i'm scared i'll never get to fly.

#sad #personal #dysphoria #poem #numb #scared #self #selfdefense #broken #love

Daniela Marie Nov 2017

Facing my Fears

There comes a moment
Fear looks differently
And my pain seeps towards you undoubtedly

I open my eyes
With reason to fight
My first chance at love is nearing in sight

Couldn't do it then
When it was just me
The quiet grew loud and I would just flee

I'm sorry my dear
I'm just not so good
Wasn't until now that I understood

I was lost before
No reason to try
Until your smile lit up my whole life

So if not for me
But for who I love
My reason to fight and lift us above

#facing #fear #personal #reflection #love #scared #introspective #introvert

Daniela Marie Sep 2017

Our sound

I can't deny
Faint and profound
Your gaze upon me made a sound

I can't deny
Sounded divine
Although my enemy was time

I can't deny
As days passed by
Your presence was now amplified

I can't deny
Caught me staring
The sound you made was now blaring

I can't deny
When you touched me
Felt raging and calm like the sea

I can't deny
That my heart swooned
The moment our sound became tuned

I can't deny
I'm terrified
We've been down that road you and I

But despite it all
You still make me fall
Could be my downfall
Still I risk it all
To tear down my wall

#new #love #him #falling #scared #heart