You send my head spinning
Through clouds
Stars
And space

I am enchanted
By your knowledge
Your eyes
Your grace

A fleeting feeling danced through my body
When your eyes met mine
But then I tore off the mask
That I gave you
And spat in the lies
That I fed you

I convince myself
That you and I
Will intertwine
But when you heart and mine touch
The love is just mine

You sent me to heaven
Then ripped me out
My pain is my own

I was happier there
You know so much
But not that

And I will never forget that you sent me cosmic
I still hope that you will send me cosmic again

You make me see straight
When everything is a blur

You make me see clearly
When I can't see through the fog

You make me see the light
When I am lost in the dark

I need you to make me straight
Because everything is a blur

I need you to make me see clearly
Because I can't see through the fog

I need you to make me see the light
Because I am lost in the dark

Could of filled a thousand times
Up I went, opened that loose pink hole
Must have felt like air between thighs.
-
But you were always wanting more in-kind
Up it went did you feel anything inside
Could say I was small I was 9 inches 2 wide
Keep it coming fill you up, my sacks gave too much
Empty shrivelled bags seeds sewn now only dust
T**ill the next time my **** *** Bucket love.

The only reason I cannot stop writing, is that because I have no more tears left.. yet I need to let the burden out.

I smuggle you

despite your death

across Life's borders

here I hide you
between the in-

breath &
the out-

breath

hidden in
the silence

between note &
note

the space between
word and word

death will never find you
again.

I want to fall in love with you.
Not for the happily ever after but for the turmoil
and the pain
for the ability to sit
by your side and say
those three special words
for all that you are
because I enjoy your trials and tribulations
your angst and anger
your sorrow and sublime guilt
your tears on my shoulder and your arms around me
your sobs wracking my body
I want to fall in love with you
because isn't loving
something broken the most
beautiful
kind of love?
I want to love you like someone would a bird
caged but beautiful
wings clipped so you can only fly sort distances from me
I want to love you
for your dependence and
depression
I want to love you because
I want to love myself
But I can't...