The coldness seeps onto my skin,
While my fingers run down your back,
Like the surface of the porcelain bowl.

If I could choose a different life,
I'd have already been living it,
If I could love anyone else,
I'd have left town years ago.

Your pain keeps you company.
You let your demons come out to play.
You wear your anger as a coat of armor.
And then wonder why everyone runs away.

You told me you loved me
And it took me a moment
A millisecond thought
Heart in my stomach
A time I could only picture
If they heard my “I love you”
When they had their hands on
Another

And another millisecond
Merciless thoughts
How easy it was for them
To look in my eyes
And wish they were someone else’s
Hopes higher than my head
Heart dropping to my feet

A millisecond to remember
Wishing they’d have mercy on me

Only a moment
To know delicate
And kindness without expectation
You hold my chin
Stop me from looking at my feet
Have mercy on me.

i just snorted the powder
from the bottom
of a sour gummy worms bag

it burns