it's unfortunate that i forgot
to put a fragile sign on my heart
because when i started to give it away
the receiver certainly did not
*handle with care

Sweetheart, calm down.
You're not in love
nor do you love me.
you don't want to,
I won't let you.

I'm complicated.
I'm a mess.
After being too in love
with someone else.
I fell in love with my own company.
a little too much,
you could say.

So even your sweet talk
and candy.
Your long walks
and perfect goodbyes
aren't enough for me to
leave the comfort of knowing
that if i don't try
my heart won't break.

If a rose doesn't bloom
then the petals can't be
ripped off. The rose will
just be protected
by thorns and dirt.

Calm down, sweetheart
Please, calm down.
I don't love you.

being in love with me
means you've agreed
that each and every of your remarks
will be portrayed in lines of my poems
exhaled as air of my every breath
to be let out as sighs and gasps.
the thought of you will run through
my tangling veins
engraved not in my skin but my bones
even when my body is crushed
you'll float as fairy dust.
your name
will be hummed in the melody
of my dearest lullaby
you'll be the reason i sleep;
you're the sweetest of dreams.

being in love with me
tells that you've agreeed
to be loved by this very being
that carries the definition of imperfections
till the day all seas have gone dry
till the hour all birds refused to fly
till Death greets us both
like old friends meeting at coffee shops

being in love with me
might not be one of the wonders
because i am a bird with a broken wing
a crashed airplane
a forgotten book
a rejected mixtape
an ignored museum
an unwanted company
to many
a nuisance

all that i can assure you is that
when

being in love with me*
the least i can do is
love you as a whole
in spite of your broken heart
your past
your flaws
your everything

      *- Qdri M (17/10/13 01.06AM) -

Let's...

See the stars

Dance in the rain

Feel the sunrise

Climb high in the trees

Flow with the breeze

Let's..

Smile

laugh

Share

express

Let's
be naked

Let's
be free

Let's
You be you
And I'll
Be me

I can't be with you, I feel like I'm.

Fasting.

Are you.

Hungry.

Because I'm starving.

Myself...

I can't be with you.

And it feels like I'm...

Aglow you lie
in fullest splendour,
a rare blossom,
the truest gift given
& indulgent me,
my rosy cheeks covered
by your sheen,
I cry to the heavens,
awash in
your gentle-spirit
& coated with
the purest of clover,
I remain,
forever & ever,
your sweetest lover.

I have always loved you.

I imagine us 30 years down the road.
I am massaging your shoulders,
relieving knots.
Life gets me in knots too.

I've put the kettle on
I have my own key now so I come and go as I please
like the old friend I've become.
I feed your cat when you go away at weekends.

Smelling your pillow
Remembering you at 40.
Your dressing table
as I pictured it.

I have my own family now
but I met you 10 years before I met my wife.
I rode the wave of your smile,
came crashing down
the day you announced you'd met someone,
holding out for the real thing.

For; I was just a boy,
what could I deliver apart from newspapers
and the odd dodgy innuendos? you laughed at
tossing your hair.
Humouring me
but,
Never letting on that you cared.

I slip away every second night
when the second hand rests between the 8 and the 9
and it is quarter to 10.
I am on my way to see you.
We play cards and toast a drink into midnight.
Sometimes I reach for your delicately aged hand
twiddling with your rings,
knowing mine would have been the sparkly one.
But not a patch on you.

We lock eyes for around a minute,
My throat is dry.
Telepathically I tell you
I have always loved you.
Whether you are 45 or 75
I will always love you.

Give me love,
Give me your 24 carat gold smile,
Your happiness is my luxury,
Your love is my diamond

The way you play with me like a child,
Dancing in our own imagination,
Something that the world never understand

I can't forget the way you hold my hands,
You hold me, you grab me,
It's amazing, how a touch could mean so much,
I see heaven, I see love,
I feel happy, I feel loved

"You just made my day",
The things I said everyday,
Everyday... Everyday

Your pretty little liars means nothing,
I'll cover it up, cause I need your everything

I need you,
I breathe you,
I'd never leave you,
I'd die without you

God, He's a thief.. but I trust him,
Let me stay and pray with him till the end,
Cause I love him forever not maybe,
My one true love

How I long for the love of a girl
Her head over heels
Crazy
Madly
In love
yet My desire is not for her flesh
but only for her worry
her tears
her sensitivity
And for my own perfection through her eyes

When it comes time for my soul to part from my body,
bury me somewhere I've never seen before.
Inter me in a place I've not yet visited.
If you have any difficulty doing so,
then you may be assured
my life was one worth living.