I question wether heaven has gates
and if the Devil is their master.
If his fingertips has the power
to leave me out of paradise.
If he will turn me down
for what my mind has made me do.
Is there a reason they tell me to **** you
Was there a reason for this madness,
this chaos in my head.
I think there is but
will the Devil let me in?

I still feel the warmth your love provides
though now I am alone and you, gone
I still feel you each night by my side
while every day awakes a new dawn
and I find ways to keep moving on

you were every part of me, my star
we saw a future for us alone
so many stolen nights became ours
I gave myself to you and was shown
parts of your body, muscle and bone

I loved you and every bit, my dear
without you, there are merely dull aches
knowing never will I have you near
letting you leave; my greatest mistake
now all I have left is my heartbreak

This sadness is taking me over.
Blue sun is above and inside.
I haven't find five-leaved clover.
Regrets don't have end. I'm so tired.

There's no one to blame. I am useless,
Responsible for all mistakes.
Why's always my fortune so cruel?
Anxiety's hiding my face.

I wish I could blow out the fire
Of powerless anger and pain.
How quiet cries terrible liar
Knows only the night and the day.

I've been seeing somebody
can't tell nobody

he's like
tell no soul
sleep alone
I'm always watching you
all around me
passing by
shadows
cool water
his face so cold

he's got my heart
all around me
I hear it beating
shadows
follow me

he's like
stay alone
don't answer the phone
turn the lights off
keep me close

all of the nights
I've wasted
how many times
did I give myself over
without a concern
your words
pinned into my
brain

all around me
they all have your face

dilated eyes
kiss me with your eyes open
let's not fight again

we're no match from heaven
god doesn't love me

I had an angel
he was taken away

God doesn't love me
I know
because they told me

grieve alone
love alone
they responded that I was deserving
of all this crippling pain inside my brain

we're on different planes
living in different worlds

I kissed Gabriel's blood clean
almost reached invincibility
nearly became infinity

there's no forever
just everlasting fear

You told me you cared
You passed me those words like crushed berries in palm
Only to force them down my throat
And as the acid taste dissolved my sense of understanding
I found out they were poison
Yet they were already in my system
Making my heart beat rapidly and hands clammy whenever you are around
And now I stand, slumped
Water spilling over my shoulders as I try to sterilize my worn frame that you touched
But didn’t ever really touch
And the bile rises in my throat as my body tries to get rid of the toxicity you subtly forced into it
But this downpour will never match the deluge that has fallen from my eyes over the years
The rainfall that escaped my temple, my sanctuary
Because of you and your lovely words
Your intoxicating voice
Your breathtaking smile
So now as I try to drown the thought of you in a bottle of stolen *****
All I can think about are the drowsy nights we spent together
Sipping on the same substance
And now I can do nothing without being reminded of you.