My                                
scarlet                                
      flags capture                                   
the  light  of  the                              
moon                              
⭐                              
e                      
v              
e        
r      
⭐          
s                
o                  
⭐        
s  
o    
f            
t                  
l                
y          
  ⭐  

                             They
                            flap with
                             immense pride
                              I can't help but
                            watch
                          ⭐
  ­                  w
                h
                      i
                             t
                                     e
                                      ⭐
                              s
                     t
               a
                r
                        ⭐
                   ­            g
                                     a
                                      z
                       ­           e
                             r
                       s
                ⭐
             o
                   n
                             ⭐
                                   a
                                    ⭐
                         ­         r
                             e
                       d
                ⭐  
       f
   i
           e
               l
                  d
            ⭐


                           ­                                                             I'm ­ 
                                                                ­                         sitting  
                                                                ­                           on the sill    
                                                                ­                      My quill dipped in
                                                              ­                        ink
                                     ­                                                   ⭐
            ­                                                                 ­                    a
                                                               ­                                       n
                        ­                                                                 ­              d
                                                               ­                                   ⭐
                            ­                                                                 r
                                                                ­                        e  
                                                                ­                   a  
                                                                ­                 d
                                                               ­                          y
                                                               ­                                  ⭐
                                                               ­                                         f
                      ­                                                                 ­                         o
                                      ­                                                                 ­         r
                                                      ­                                                    ⭐
           ­                                                                 ­                       t
                                                               ­                              h
                                                               ­                                   e
                            ­                                                                 ­               ⭐
                                                ­                                                                v­
                                                                ­                                                  i
             ­                                                                 ­                                     r
                                                               ­                                                 g
              ­                                                                 ­                             i
                                  ­                                                                 ­     n
                                                          ­                                      ⭐
                         ­                                                             p
  ­                                                                 ­        a
                                                               ­             g
                                                  ­                                   e
                                                               ­                                   ⭐

                           ­                 The
                                            ­  stars     are
                                               S P A R K L I N G
                                            and    it    brings­    me
                                              joy
        ­                                  ⭐
                             ­       m
                                      y
                ­                              ⭐
                                 ­                        h
                                                               e
                                                               a
                                                            r
 ­                                                     t
          ­                                    ⭐
                           ­           i
                                 s
                                  ⭐
                           ­                a
                                                   f
                                                         l
                                                       a
                                                   m
                                              e
               ­                                     ⭐

These                    ­              
Lanterns                                
will soon rise                                
and   carry   my                                
hopes                                
⭐                                
f                          
o                    
r                        
⭐                                
t   ­                                     
h                                            
e                                          
y                   ­             
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w            
i            
l                
l                          
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b                                      
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⭐                        
r                  
       e              
a      
l            
       i                        
s                    
e              
d­      
  ⭐

                                      So
                  ­                     many
                                          storms brewed
                                        and  grew  in   my
                                        mind
                 ­                      ⭐
                                                s
             ­                                         o
                      ­                                  ⭐
                             ­                      m
                                             a
                                       n
                                            y
                 ­                                    ⭐
                                                             d
                                                               ­    o
                                                               u
                                                        b
     ­                                            t
                                                     s
                                                             ⭐

But                           
now I'm                         
hoping that                          
my fingers speak                          
true                        
⭐                      
b            
e      
c      
a              
u                      
s                  
e          
⭐  
            i      
                       t              
                      ⭐                  
i    
s          
⭐        
   f    
          o
              r
           ⭐
       y
   o
        u
                    ⭐

                              ­                                             From
                                                                ­            the far
                                                                ­             reaches of
                                                              ­               my Kingdom is
                                                              ­                snow
                                            ­                                  ⭐
                             ­                                                       c
        ­                                                                 ­                      o      
                                                         ­                                      v
                                                               ­                               e
                                ­                                                            r
   ­                                                                 ­                  e
                                                                ­               d
                                                                ­        ⭐
                                                       ­                  r
                                                               ­                     u
                                                                ­                           i
                                                               ­                                       n
                        ­                                                                 ­                  s
                                                               ­                                          ⭐

                                        It
                                           may be
                                            night but my
                                           chamber has rich
                                         hues
                                       ⭐
                                  t
                           ­            h
                                                a
             ­                                            t
                                                             ⭐
                                                           e
                                                      n
       ­                                          r
                                            i
                 ­                                 c
                              ­                              h
                                 ­                                     ⭐
                          ­                                                     m
                                                               ­                      y
                                                               ­                   ⭐
                                            ­                                s
                               ­                                      o
                                                               ­   u
                                                            ­            l
                                                   ­                              ⭐

My                                                
F E L L O W                                              
Kings and Queens                                              
of      near­    and      far                                                
I                                                    
⭐         ­                                         
h                                          
o                                    
p                         ­           
e                                              
⭐                                                        
y     ­                                                     
o          ­                                        
u                                        
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r                             ­ 
e                                        
c                    ­                            
i                                   ­                 
e                                            
 ­  v                                    
e                          
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m                                          
y                   ­                   
⭐                              
l                        
e     ­             
t                
  t                      
  e                            
  r                                    
⭐                       ­     

                  This
                  Queen is
                      S O  A N X I O U S
                     but excited
                  for
                   ⭐
                           t
                                   h
                                     e
                                ⭐
                         f
                      u  
              t
          u
                r
                             e
                                   ⭐
                                         a
                                             h
                                           e
                                           a    
                                     d    
                                ⭐

...
something is stealing our time
you know that feeling
when year is already over
but you still remember something
like it happened yesterday
...

I feel like that my life is a mess,
I don't have a lot of time about my mind think of good,
My mind is always thinks about the bad,
and I can't help it.

I am physically and mentally sad
and torn apart when no one is around,
No one knows the reason why
I sleep late when I use my phone...

Sometimes that I wish that my life
was better, and easier.
I just want to do certain things in life that I want to do.

I am a huge mess,
when I do something wrong,
i don't eat much just to punish myself,
i didn't care though.

I have a eating disorder since i was 4 years old or maybe younger,
my mom was sick with a mental Disease that she didn't feed me much.
I was starting then to feel depressed,
and i starved myself at least 2 or 3 times.
i can't remember a lot but i remember that issue in that.

All that i did is drink Pop just to keep me alive.
I am so pale that I don't have iron into my system,
my body system gets confused and i can't think about that much.

I am a huge mess,
and sometimes that I need someone....

Friends or lovers?
It doesn't work that way.
We can be one or the other.
Both doesn't happen.

Why can't we?
Why can't we?

Our closeness only last until tick of the clock.
We could try to break all the clocks.
Hope the time never stops.
We would succeed until the light in the sky brighten.

We may as well be detached strangers living in the same space.
We try so hard only for it to start all over again.
We will break the cycle when I open the floodgates.
Let all those emotions come crashing down.

Are we friends or lovers?
Are we friends?
Are we lovers?
Are we?