Pick up the plate
From which you never said thank you
I’ll take your leftovers
Because that’s all you ever give.
I remember a time
When I did more than settle for less
Now I’m headed in a direction of unworthiness
Fear stops me from speaking my truth
Would it be so bad to rid of you?
All you do is take,
And I know I can do better
But I still can’t say it’s over
I’m waiting for a change
Now I realize, I needs to come from my own inner strength
But I’ll continue to be weak
If I restrict how much I eat
I am settling for crumbs
And I’m finally feeling, how it’s not enough
I’ll either starve to death
Or you’ll take everything I’ve got left
Either way, a life of misery is headed my way
Then acting helpless
Playing the victim
Believing the idea the world is out to get me
That might have been the condition in which I was raised
But now I’m in another stage
A different place
I can hold the power for my future to be shaped
I can create a better life, through my choices and words
Unless I move, and speak my truth
Chances are the same pattern will continue
Freedom is found in a new direction
From experience I know
I deeper I go
on this co-dependent road
It will only be harder
And take longer
To reach the light
From where I long to be
Where I should only be.
Now it’s my turn to speak
Listen to me
I won’t settle for crumbs
Or take pathetic remnants
Children don’t grow
From taking bits and pieces
The body, spirit, and mind, needs substantial nutrients.
I might not be a child,
But I’ve never stopped growing
I am worthy of only the best
Starting today, I won’t accept anything less
With God in my heart, he’ll take care of the rest.