The pale sun rays
were shining above me.
It was the
shadow to my light.
I felt as the
waves pulled me
in different directions
but i remained
on the surface.
When they hold me
i'm alive.
Eye to eye, so alive.
Find light in the
blue sea, i choose
to be happy.
These shallow waters
never were what
i needed.
I'm diving deeper.
Was it all in
my fantasy?
The eternal silence
of the sea, i'm breathing it.
I'm lying.
Was it only imaginary?
Another dream.
Palms rise to the
universe while i am
just one step ahead
to sink into the sea
of my long lost soul.
So lost, I'm fading.
The monsters are
running wild inside of me.
Sometimes i don't need
lack of air to feel
like i'm drowning.
If i lose myself, i lose it all.
And i was afraid of
the depth, i was afraid
of the unknown...

  **She was a pearl lying on the bottom of the sea, so i desperately dived to reach her. But i forgot that i had to breath

you hit me and hurt me
and often mistook
my fear or my terror
for an insolent look

you shook me and broke me
straight down to my bones
you spit and you mocked me
'til I gave up hope

your words they could cut
just as bad as that book
that you threw at my face
while your dinner got cooked

but the day that I left you,
the cutting was mine
your voice on the phone
couldn't hold back your slime

i remember you screaming
i remember you crying
i remember your voice as
it changed on the line

you whined and demanded
the few things that i took;
you ended the chapter
*oh, but i burned the book.

Fighting every moment
To be less than
And more than