I.

Water glimmers across your untainted lips

Dripping, drips, dropped

While I wait patiently to kiss them,

The sun is setting over the horizon.

You watch as the sky's hue changes in color

Changing, changes, changed

And I watch you.

            II.

Close enough to touch your face,

But I yearn to feel your heart.

You turn and look me in the eye

            Searching, searches, searched

See me through my soul.

I am home

            With you my love

The pieces of my soul crack under forbidden touches
Yearning for more
I don't care if I become undone
Feeling the passion
Is worth more than the pain
Of numbness
I want to feel
Revel in the kisses and touches
That come from you
But belong to me
More
I want more
Of you

I am drowning in your love
In your scent
In your well being.

Succumbed to your every word
Thought
Whisper.

I am yours
Are you mine
Can we be each others?

Tangled up with your soul
They are dancing
Can we dance?

The door creeks,
And you meet me on the inside.
Inside me,
Kissing me,
Engulfing me,
- ******* my mind, while you're touching my soul.
The window opens,
Wind finds it's way in,
Whispering ***** words in my ear,
Makes a home in my bones,
- I am cold now.
Warm me up
A cup of coffee, a nice ****, a good book.
- I'm on the last page now.
Pages turned, chapters ended,
Time has passed and I have learned,
- I need a new story...
Fire crackles as the smoke rises
And you're rising up with it.
No longer keeping me warm from the breeze of the winter.
- I am exposed.
Legs open and ***** out, ******* hard, and **** throbbing.
- You ****** me for the last time.
Summer rays seep through the crack of the door
- And I still want you.

Days are turning into nights
And there you are in the back of mind as if you never left.
Always dreaming of your touch, of your voice..
Your skin was always so soft under mine and you always seemed to glow even when there was no light.
I miss you.
I miss everything about you and I long for you to be here again.
Why'd you ever leave? I wasn't ready for you to go.. Didn't you know that? I need you, maybe more now than ever.
I want to hear you, to feel you.
I am selfish. I knew you were in pain but so am I. Here without you.

Flakes fall so so slow.
The windows are fogged, I touch, they're .. cold
They're cold like my mind, like my heart, like my tears..
Tears that stain this cheek black from last nights mascara,
From last weeks tirade, from last years aguish, from my last years of pain..

Flakes fall so so slow.
They fall on my hand and melt away as quickly as they came.
Start at the edges, move to the middle, then STOP… and become water.
It becomes water on my hand that then overflows and slips through the crevasses of my palm unto the unknowing abyss like you.
You slipped through the cracks of my heart, my soul you were my undoing, you had me . . . but you slipped.

Flakes fall so so slow.
Trees are withered and dead. no colors on their limbs and they bent under submission to the falling snow.
Like I _ I bent over backwards and forwards and sideways, jumped up and down just to make you happy.
And what did I receive? All I received was the burden of having you on my back and the so called obligation I had to you.

Flakes fall so so slow.
Like time when you're in the worst heartache of your life. it slows.
It slows to every ******* second, As if God himself was watching in slow motion just to laugh, just to say I told you so.

Flakes fall so so slow.
So ******* slow.
Painfully slow that you have no other choice but to look.
You watch as it makes the world beautiful in a matter of seconds until it gets ***** and washed away.
Like you did with me. I am washed away with the dirt you bestowed upon me.

Flakes fall so so slow.
And I am right there with it. Falling slower than ever before as I watch my life pass me by and doing nothing about it.
I am the Slowest Winter.

Windows with chains and walls of deceit and defeat. I can't bear it any longer.
Love and trust and familiarity and you and us and the thoughts of what ifs but all we are is because of you...
My love, my soul, my heart, my forever.
I can't do this forever...........
I deserve better......
But I want this.
And I want us.
And I want you.
Why can't we be on the same page.

Relapsing through time With one disturbing image.
Time travels back to the day of.
I have become undone.
Restless nights fill my eyes heavy with baggage.
I am a corpse_wanting to be numb . Wanting to be away. Wanting to be free.
Whispering secrets to my fellow corpses, but they have all gone.
Are all disintegrating  in this muck full of lies and deceit.
Who am I to turn too?
I whispered my secret to my beloved corpse but he is no longer there.
Fast asleep, in the most innocence of dreams , while I lay, wide awake. Heart pounding . Palms sweaty, limbs shaking, mind racing. And he is ... Gone.
I whispered my secret to my beloved corpse and he cannot hear.