Chesca R

Chesca R Aug 2015

What Ifs

Would things had been different if you knew

How much I thought

And dreamt of you.

Would things had been different if I had said-

Our memories unfold;

They're on replay in my head.

Would things had been different if I confessed

That all my writings were made for you

Through hurt, through moments, through poeticness.

Maybe if I had, things would have been different-

Maybe it would no longer be you and she.

Maybe instead it would have been

You and me.

idek. old feelings. old thoughts. old me.

#past #thoughts #maybe #different

Chesca R Jul 2015

Dolls

I didn’t want to mislead myself.
   Every boy that I have loved
   Thought it was okay to just
   Pick me up,
   Play with me,
And return me back on the shelf.

I no longer want to be their toy.
I tried to save myself from getting hurt
By another boy.

#hurt #boys #play #dolls #mislead

Chesca R Jul 2015

Darling, You are Out of Reach

Distance wasn't across the room.
It was something
More than a mile.
Comparable to gaps
Of broken friendships,
Silences
Of ex lovers,
An almost
Kiss.
Sitting next to you.
And being universes apart.

Distance.
It was You and **I.

*attempts to rhyme but fails tremendously*

#love #kiss #you #universe #unrequited #distance #reach

Chesca R Feb 2015

Calendars

just as the dates
flew by
we came down to our last
goodbye

haven't posted in ages???

#goodbye #last

Chesca R Jan 2015

Surprise

I am not crying.
But it is raining outside.
And I thought maybe this is heaven's way of saving me from tears.
My sadness came in droplets sliding slowly off a glass window.
But I am sure as hell glad it did not hail down on me like a storm.

#sad #tears #crying #rain #glad

Chesca R Nov 2014

Perplexed

When did it-? Where did it-? How did it-?
I do not know (why the feeling came.)
All I know is that since then,
I have not been the same.

Rosy cheeks and bad hair cuts--
We were little kids; so young.
I did not think my feelings for you
Would last infinities long.

Your hands that held me with lies--
A fantasy fairy tale; all fake.
I did not think it would end like this.
Our "love" my biggest mistake.

I tried practicing my rhyme-y poems. Sorry if this was bad :(
I wrote this when I was bored in Math class.

#love #feelings #fake #mistake #kids #children

Chesca R Nov 2014

Have Faith

They slashed me up without bleeding me.
They hit me hard without a single touch.

Thoughts.

Don't they know what they're doing?
Don't they know that my mind is a place to ponder--
To think, not over-think?

I tried to run away, I tried to escape;
Only ending up back where I began to run,
Because they were my escape.

How amazing.
How unfair.
How thoughtless my thoughts tend to be.

me right now :(

#sad #hope #hurt #thoughts #escape