Why is it that whenever I am not well

                                                           ­                 I tend to reflect on my life,

                                   How i treat others

It's as if I not only want to get better from the illness

                                                        ­       but need to be better in general.

Is Tahirih today not good enough?    :(

Silly fever, illnesses are for mortals, so why you trouble me so?

Don’t fall in love with a person like me
I will take you to coffee shops always,
if you ask me out on a date.

Don’t fall in love with a person like me
All I want you to give me are books
every time you ask me what present
I want.

Don’t fall in love with a person like me
I am a movie *****, I see everything
as a movie, even you.

Don’t fall in love with a person like me
All I listen to is the lyrics of song, not its
rhythm.

Don’t fall in love with a person like me
I feel everything so deeply, and it’s a
curse.

So please, don’t fall in love with me

You're not afraid of love,
You're afraid of heartbreak

You're afraid of being so high and then being brought so low...
Afraid of the idea that everything that goes up has to come back down, the nature of gravity doesnt allow otherwise...


But My Love,
In case you didn't already know,
Love defies nature...
                                          
                              - F.V.

There is a place
where thoughts are left for dead
Unseen, unheard
Unwritten, and unsaid
A dark place deep
In the dismal abyss of the head
Where the cold bites sharply
And shadows scream
with voices so high
They cannot be heard
except for above,
only in the sky.
I have a castle there,
I built a palace out of words
And underneath,
below the dungeons filled with traitorous thoughts
Under the bellies of my demons
There is a place
where thoughts are left for dead
Unseen, unheard,
Unwritten, and unsaid.

Love is like
your favorite
superhero --
it brings salvation
along with
its destruction.

Love is like
the air we breathe --
felt by our senses
except for the eyes.

Love is like
a sincere prayer --
where our hopes
and dreams
are being kept.

Love is like
a faithful devotion --
the act of being loyal,
of being truthful,
and committed.

Love is like
a memory --
lives through the years;
immortal when
scripted on pages.

Love is like
the promises --
uttered from
many years ago;
by a lover, to
a wishing well,
or to a falling star.

Because love
is something
you can never
hold on to;
but can only
believe in.

You told me to write whenever something inspired me
So I wrote about how you loved me
despite all my faults

And I've been spilling myself on these pages
Trying to find the right things to say
But now I'm drained empty

I tried writing about whats keeping me alive all this time
When i had every reason not to breathe
I ended up writing your name

You were my anchor
Holding me down through the night
When the storms hit the hardest

I promised I would never write about you
I never needed to immortalize someone who I would never forget

When i drifted away you pulled me closer
Having your hand to guide me
I find the light
Please dont leave me in the dark

Right now its a little too much
Theses thoughts, they haunt my mind
I can't let it all go!

I'm trapped inside this nightmare
His hands roaming,
I'm begging and pleading but it won't stop!

I've decided tonight
I'm done with this pain
Blood dripping from my arms and thoughts of suicide.

I'm trapped and can't escape
Every time I close my eyes
His face and voice are there.

I can feel the touch that makes my stomach churns,
The tears that burn my eyes because they daren't fall.
I'm a failure and can't deal with this anymore.