Imagine your entire life,
Everyone you've ever loved-
Or trusted a tiny bit.
Every single one of them,
Hurting you in some new way
At some point in time.

Imagine that they walk away,
As if they never knew you.
Not a single glance behind them.

Imagine how scared you'd feel
Whenever you met someone new.

Imagine how sad you'd be
When you sit at home alone.

Imagine how angry you'd get sometimes
When you see their faces.

Imagine how tired you must be
Knowing that it'll never quite be over.
Knowing that the cycle repeats.

Imagine that in me.
Imagine how hard that I must work.
To hide that story,
To fit in with society.
And act like I feel human.

Now you can understand
Why I've finally reached an end.
I can't go on this way.
But the thing is;
I can't change my past.

Look at where we stand,
Look at who we are.
It's almost as if
Nothing ever changed.
An entire year ago-
As if it were just yesterday,
A single breath away.

We fought a whole war,
Learned new lessons,
Broke our hearts,
And stole a few others.

And yet it's like nothing changed,
We're practically the same.

We worked so hard,
We broke down,
And then rebuilt.
And we're still in the same place.
As if it never happened-
A waste of our time.

We still want the same things,
Still need the same people.
Whispering the same truths,
And telling the same lies.
An entire year ago-
As if it were just yesterday,
A single breath away.

I just don't understand what's going on,
I have no clue what I am to you.
Am I more now?
Am I less?
Has nothing changed at all?
I'm not a fan of ambiguity;
Especially in friends.
And I thought that we were more.
But this unknown state of being
Is tearing me apart.
So if you meant to say
That when you come back
You'll be coming back for me-
You should say it sooner.
Because if you wait 'til later
I might already be gone.

My love is like a star
It's there burning bright for so long that you take it for-granted
And when it's close to its end
It gives one last giant burst with all the energy that's left
And then it's gone forever

When the words don't come
And the thoughts stop short
I feel a sense of panic
And loss

Who am I if I have no thoughts?
What am I if I can't communicate?
I drop away from humanity
I fall out of society