i love you.
and no i don't mean,
i love you, like i'm trying to make empty conversation.
more vacant than the mailbox of the widow next door,
who hasn't left the house in eight years because the sunlight's embrace still feels like his.
i've never been one for small talk.

i love you
and no i don't mean,
i love you - like it's february 14th and i'm thirsty for someone to tell me i'm beautiful,
so i'd sell my soul to you
and stain your bitter lips with my name.

"i love you"
but you won't call me back next week
because i gazed in to your eyes like you were oxygen and i was struggling to breathe.
rather than you were a poem painted across the sky
that i was dying to read.
an excited grin flirting with my rosy lips, entangled with elation.

i mean *i love you
like my eyes become the north star when you laugh,
i see your face etched between the stanzas of love poems,
and i hear your voice in the wind's autumn serenade.

i mean i love you
like i'm a fifty year old alcoholic with wine stains on my carpet
and i'd still choose you over that bottle of liquid elation in the cabinet.
here i am. stumbling on my words,
choking on the poetry weaved into your smile.

and "i love you" -
the sun's fiery kiss against my skin
reminds me of yours.
and when my bones age, and your presence fades into the horizon like daytime's end.
your absence will burn like cherry wine flirting in the back of my throat.
i may fear sunlight too.

i love you.

                                               (m.c.)

Your smile was so bright
Your laugh sparked a room
Always bringing such delight

But it was just a well performed act
Only a staging to conceal
The smiles were a hoax, a fraud in fact

Everyone in the audience oblivious
To the reality of his suffering
Blinded by the act, we never were suspicious

You never revealed your sadness
Always bright eyed and cheery
It seemed as if you were built from hapiness

Today i am still not sure
What the reason it was
To avert your stay on this earth

To force yourself to leave
If I had known before your departure
To have you stay I would infinitely plead

But you left with no warning
Abandoning multitudes of people
We soon found ourselves mourning

Over the death of our sunshine
The loss of an inspiring boy
Who had brought so much light to my life

I give my love

I give my love to you

I give you shelter

I give you shelter in my heart

Whatever may be the place
Whatever may be the place
You live....

For me

You are inside me
You are inside me

Inside my body
Like no one can
separate

Inside my heart
Like no one can
take you out

I robbed before I did
I lied before I did
I kissed her once I kissed her friend I kissed him to I've loved a man.
I'm sick!
Never killed a person but I hated
Suicide thoughts always **** him
He was ten years old ima ******
There's blood on my hands yes I did it.
I seen stuff that I should of told
I heard stuff that they never known
I ate stuff that hurts my soul
I gave stuff that I know was wrong!!

Do I believe in demons
Yes
They talk to me they say "look at this mess!"
Do I believe in angels
Yes
They walk with me until Glory come shine on us.

I need a God cause you can judge me but I judge myself every breath.