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Heart clenched
Breath gone
Hyperventilate
You forgot your phone
It's the end of the world
My body refuses to cooperate
20 minutes
That's all this can last
Yet 20 minutes can feel like a year
As long as you give it the space
Wanting to stay and fight
Or fly away
But you can barely stand in one place
Your touch feels like iron
Trapping me inside this cage
Just let me out
Don't ******* touch me there
Who knows if this is crap?
I see you slowly disappearing
under all the weight
I want to hold your hand
and tell you it’ll be okay
we both know that’s a load of bull crap
and I don’t want to lie
please don’t disappear
please know you are the brightest star
you taught me how to think
you taught me how to frown
you taught me the beauty of vulnerability
and I don’t want to hold you down
please know that I love you
and even if you need
me to let you go
i’ll do that cause I love you
but please
please
don’t leave this world alone
Written to my best friend
Popping
Stabbing
Wounding my head

Why won't you leave me?
My old friend

You've been with me for so long a time
I've gotten quite used to you
Get out of my mind

stop clouding all my sunny thoughts
All you bring is darkness
I don't want to talk

I would love it if you would please go away
You aren't welcome here
I don't want you to stay

Stop telling me things I don't want to hear
I've heard it enough
I'm done with this fear

I know that I'm crap
You are too
So stop yelling at me friend
Cause I don't care about you

I'm allowed to be ****
I am trying for more
please just  
Let me shut the door.
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
AE
endless
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
AE
I tend to be angry a lot
and I find that my source of rage
is you
so I run
I run so fast I forget about the world around me
I focus on running from you
away from my love for you
I tend to be angry a lot
so I punch things
I hit so hard my knuckles begin to bleed
my skin turns purple and blue
I tend to be angry a lot
so I write
I write so much my fingers cramp
my back aches from being hunched over my journal for so long
my eyes red and puffy
cheeks stained by your words
and I get so angry
so engulfed by hate
but I still love you
no matter what
no matter how many pills
how many empty pages
empty bottles
I still want you
I tend to get angry a lot
and I find that my source of hatred
is you
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
Holly
.
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
Holly
.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
My wrist are red,
And i'm black and blue
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
Mara
all my memories
are decaying as we speak
my eyes only register your long lashes
your lips, your teeth
i'm consuming you with my whole being
forgetting I had any other reason to live
synapses spark
vivid images die within me
say you'll be here when I wake up
because I can't deal with the idea of
not being able to remember your face
touch, small little moles on your back
i never want to forget any of that
i don't mind if everything else leaves
i just need some kind of hope
that something we have will last eternally
i'll never be able to remember this moment
more clearly then I see it now
and something in my heart shatters
at the thought beauty can't transcend
the physical limits of the matter in my mind
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
Mara
Four parts, woven together
Uniting all universal truths
What others do with it's powers
Only the future will prove

The *first strand
displays the world's true nature
Destroying everything it creates
We become unwanted children
Who have learned to incorporate
Killing in our communities
Biting, grinding flesh and bone
Swallowing with guilt free demeanors
Only leaving foul-stenched excretions as evidence

Second Strand speaks of our basic biological anxiety
To deny the terror of death
Imperatively born, emerging from nothing
Given a name and consciousness
Hopelessly abandoned from the beginning
Only to be fated always with everlasting death

Strand three
We hide underneath the
"Vital lie of the character"
Pretend to be shining knights in armor
Who will make us forget our
Unconscious anxiousness of death
We all work to attain prestige, money, and the
Fleeting feel of immortality
Worshiping Gods with clay feet
And when our beliefs are attacked
"Holy wars" becomes the pseudonym for
Our immortality projects

The last strand
All the efforts we put into
Making this Earth perfect
By eliminating scapegoat "enemies" and "evil" deities
We end up making everything filthy
In the effort to make everything right and pure
We turn the Earth's soil black and color the sky red
We strived for utopias, making dystopians
All these actions seem unconscious
But it is not the animals nature or
Evolutionary process
It's just us trying to pretend
We don't have perishable bodies;
Trying to deny death
Inspired by Ernest Becker's philosophical book 'Denial of Death'
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
Mara
Untitled
 Jan 2015 Brittle Bird
Mara
Good luck trying to "save me"
Because to you all I do is self destruct and **** everything
In your eyes, I need help from people with Ph.D.'s  
I need to be stuffed with pills, take EEG scans
Violated with stethoscopes and serotonin shots
"I'll fix you, I promise"
Smile at me like a scientist does to it's experiment
Make me feel like I'm the guilty one when you hold my hand
As I sit down for these doctors and tell them when it starts to hurt
I should've started screaming a long time ago
I can no longer remember when I first felt all this pain
When was the last time I told someone how I felt that wasn't paid by someone else?
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