Just pretend that you don't know me

And I'll just pretend too
That I don't have feelings for you

©IGMS

we're so used by being used
how long do we need to bleed
it's just happening all over and over
we always come back to this
like we never learned a thing
I know you know how this feels
played by somebody's hands
tortured by their schemes and playtimes

My heart
Pounds faster and faster,
My mind is convinced,
That my body's disaster,
But you told me it's not,
That you think it is hot,
And you would love,
To have me in your bed.

My body
Shakes harder and harder,
Your hands they wander,
As they gently discover,
Every inch of the surface,
As if it has but one purpose,
And that is to be yours,
But only when wanted.

My gasps
Come quicker and quicker,
And your tongue is slick,
In its oh-so frenzied lick,
As if my body was sweet,
Sweet as the richest candy,
****** till sweet no more.

I* still remember color of your eyes,
and I do not think that you've remembered the color of mine.
I remember what your voice and heartbeat sounded like,
and I always dream of hearing them both one more time.
everyday, I hope you will call once more,
saying that you love me, the way I do.
I think its time I stop loving *you.

The pain that I never show,
Is the pain that you'll never know.

I used to think that you’ll always be beautiful in my eyes
That your presence alone would suffice
You said it yourself, that once you fall in love
Everything about them is beautiful

It’s so easy to put it in words
How each day you gave me a wonderful feeling
But your image in my head is now blurred
I realized your beauty is not appealing

You made me feel unimportant
I couldn’t get over it
The feeling when you thought it was all real
But it’s not

Disappointed, I must say
On what could’ve been
Between us I thought there was never an end
Here I am no matter how hard I try
I am not attracted anymore
Or so I thought

To care about someone when one’s hurt
That’s what love is all about.

But I still think about you
Just because I don’t like you anymore
Doesn’t mean I don’t care about you
I said I’d never leave
And I never did

I thought I wanted to be alone.
I thought it's what I needed.
Peace and quiet.
But sitting here in the corner of this room.
This horribly quiet room.
I'm having second thoughts.
Except I can't think.
The silence, it's loud.
Too loud.
It's starting to get to me.
My eyes scatter around the room.
Looking.
Searching.
For noise.
Just a trace.
None.
Not even a creak from the old floor board.
I need sound.
I need someone.