i've found heaven
stumbled upon it accidentally
more than a time or two
swirled in different hues of blue
hidden within a timid smile
tucked into the words of my favorite song
i've found it within the hearts of strangers
the ones who hand me things from the top shelf
the ones who go out of their way to paint a smile on my face
i've found it buried in the hazel eyes of my lover
in his generosity that knows no bounds
in his warms hands and gentle embrace
stitched into his ever so caring heart
i've found it in family
blood and not blood
in their unconditional love
in their way of always making me feel wanted
heaven is right there
it's within arms reach
a golden sheen just waiting to be seen
defog your tired eyes and begin to really see
see the beauty in everyday things
the little things
sometimes i think we forget
heaven isn't that far away

Nevermind,
It's never mine,
What I've never done;
Never left behind,
I'd never thought,
I'd never find...

Broken,
Shaken,
Never had a thought;
Never crossed my mind,
Never thought I'd know,
Never thought I'd mind...

Shotgun,
Rusted,
Never thought twice,
Filled my veins with ice,
I've never lied,
I've Never died...

But never's fine,
I've never twice,
Played a game of never mind with my life,
I'll never find,

I'm never fine...

I wasn’t so afraid
of shadows that stalk.

Wish I wasn’t so afraid
of demons that talk.

Why can't I focus?

Why is this silence deafening?

This anxiety bouncing off the walls

It reverberates like sound waves

I just wish I could hear the voices of those I love

The way her face crumples together,
and her eyes turn red,
as if her entire world is falling apart
makes me feel sorry for her.
I reach out to comfort her,
but my hand touches the mirror
and won't pass through.

Today was hard,

Like every day,
But worse,

And it pushed me,
To the edge,

I couldn’t handle it,
So now,

I’m laying here,
Feeling this pain,

Hoping,
It will go away,

All because,
I gave up today,

Because life is a game,
And I wouldn’t play.

All he had to do
Was take me by the hand
It was at that moment I knew
That he would understand

His touch, it showed the care
His eyes, they showed their love
His hugs, they make me feel
A warmth I knew nothing of

He feels me when I'm sad
Although I turn to hide
He wraps his arm around me
And pulls me to his side

He embraces me so close
Reluctant to let go
I lay my head upon him
And his heart will tell me so

He tells me I am strong
But at times I just don't know
My heart she tends to crumble
Not knowing where to go

I look at his warm face
And I can't help but smile
His eyes they say it all
A love that flies for miles

His absence through the days
Is sometimes hard to steer
But I keep my thoughts within
Knowing that he's near.