I fell in love with your cat naps
And bad days
Your crazy laugh
And golden eyes

Your mind is like a puzzle
I'll never truly solve
Your body like a cloud
I always want to chase

I fell in love with your day dreams
And good days
Your sweet kisses
And soft touch

With every breath I take
She takes my breath away
She stores them in a jar inside a cupboard
Waiting there for me to take them
I know they're there
It's no big secret
But I keep them there
They're hers for keeping

The water runs cold through my hair,
Across my face and down my back.
I stand there motionless,
Emotionless.

The ground changes from dirt to mud,
Between my toes and through my soles.
I sit there motionless,
Emotionless.

The sky pours down my back,
Into my clothes and soaks my bones.
I lie there motionless,
Emotionless.

The thoughts in my head start to fade,
Beyond my sight and far from home.
I am motionless,
Emotionless.

When you fell in love,
You realized how grotesque it is.
When tragedy struck,
You realized how gorgeous she is.

This is for every poem written,
For every poem that wasn’t.

This is for every letter I've sent,
For every letter I’ll write.

This is for every feeling I've felt,
For every feeling I've yet to feel.

This is for every word I've spoken,
For everything I wished I said.

This is for every friend I've made,
For every friend I’ll lose.

This is for every memory we’ve had,
For every memory we’ll make.

This is for every toss and turn,
For every forgotten night.

This is for every one we’ve loved,
For every one we haven't.

This is for every tear shed,
For every kiss to come.

This is for every morning we awoke,
For the one morning we will not.

This is for the years I never knew you,
For the years I no longer will.

This is from myself,
For you.

I want to wash it all away
Give them a glimpse of hope
But it’s already too dark for any flashlight to help
For I am lost in this sea of sorrow
And all anyone can do is
*Drown

I am reminded every day
Of what terrible things happen
When she is alone

Yet she is always alone
No matter how many people are there
Her scars still remain

But her scars are not on skin
They lie deep within her soul
I am reminded every day