I'll bury all my secrets in my skin,
come away with innocence
but bleed my truthful sins.
the world around me feels like
a tight cage
and "I love you", is just a camouflage
for your next episode of rage.

If you do love me, let me go
I'll probably run away before I truly know
my heart is too black to care,
is it destroyed if it was never really there?

I'll find my penance, delivered to my true state
if I'm alone I have no one to hate,
but myself.

My love was banished long ago,
if you still care don't ever let me know.

Angels will lie to keep control
making over heaven like some paradise we all want to go
dead trees are painted white
and she calls them beauty, art.

My selfish thoughts colour my life
and I call that my heart.

If I had to fix myself I don't know where I'd start
But I suppose,
I'd cut each limb to the bone
and tear my entire self apart.

Staring at my wall while feeling my pillow becoming a puddle of all the feelings i can't verbalize. They are always there, tearing me down from the inside and out
- as a reflection I leave the scars from my heart on my surface.
It's a cry for help.
I am worthless.
I am nothing.
They pretend to care, they don't think i know, but I do. Because every day I am pretending to smile.
Making it seem like I  want this life.
But i know that it's only a matter of time, before my inner demons takes over my body to make this unbearable pain end

I wish
her scars were on my heart
and not on her arms.

My words became
knives.
A paragraph,
a sword.
And when I
made
my first speech,
the room
                was
                        hit
                             with
                                            a
                                                    grenade.

I'm guilty of loving you beyond myself..... more than I've ever loved anyone or anything else. I loved you more than I ever loved myself. I'm guilty of making you my world, my life, my everything, my future my wife. I'm guilty of loving you..... giving my all to you; I'm guilty of being true to you...... I'm guilty of placing myself beneath you..... I'm guilty of being a fool to you. I'm also guilty of walking away, I realized that staying with you was a price that, I could no-longer pay. Though, I loved you..... I remembered me--- and realized I didn't deserve to be treated this way. Yes, I'm guilty of just walking away...... really there were  no words to say...... my silence was the peace that, I received in just... the walk away.