turning silence into wasted memories*

You **** me everyday with your silence
through that green circle by your name-
a chance to know you more
with just a single tap,
a simple knock,
to turn silence into memories

still, i am content
with just the silence
never will i gather enough courage
to be weird and
bother you,
i guess i’m just
too hesitant to be spontaneous

Silence.
It’s the space between us
where nothing happens
Silence.
drowning too deep in my own doubts to clear my mind.
Silence.
saying it won’t matter anyway, anyhow it goes.
Silence.
confused and filled with what if’s and could’ve been’s.
Silence.
hard for me to swallow my pride.
Silence.
we never should’ve been friends.
Silence.
but i want to know you more.
Silence.
I divert my senses to something else.
Silence.
You’re active now it says.
Silence.

Nothing more than regret I can do,
I want this feeling to let me go,
want you to just-
Silence.
and off you go.

In the silence I hear him calling
   He's calling me
   In the silence I hear him singing a sweet melody
   through the wind and the rustling of the trees
   In the silence I sense his presence
   In the silence I reach for him
   In the silence I confess to him
   In the silence I cry out to him
   I know he comforts me  
   In the silence he heals me
   In the silence I have peace within

   In the silence I envision him dying
    He died for me and you
   In the silence I know he is living
   He is living for you and me
   In the silence I know he loves me
   In the silence I know that I want to live for him
   Jesus is there in the silence
   He's calling to all of us in the silence

"Hello
... silence
Hey
... silence
Hi
... silence
Sup
... silence
Are you dead?
... silence
Hello?
... silence
Are you ignoring me?
... silence
Okay, I'll leave you alone
... silence
Sorry
... silence
... silence
... silence
Hey
... silence
Are you okay?
... silence
I'll leave you alone, sorry
... silence
... silence
... silence
Do I bother you?
No, you're fine, it's not you I swear.
Okay.
... silence
... silence"
I know, I know
I shouldn't let this hurt me so.
I should believe you
I shouldn't think what you say is untrue.
It's not all about me
But this happens so often it's hard not to see.
Are we really friends?
Is this coming to an end?
Are you going to leave me too?
... Like all of them.
Was I too clingy?
Should I have just let you be?
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to bother you.
I just didn't want to lose you too.
Ah, I suppose its my own fault.
I shouldn't have opened my vault.
I shouldn't have told you all about me and who I am
It must've been as boring as watching falling sand.
I'm sorry that I thought-
...
What did I think?
...
Did I honestly think you cared?
I opened up to you, even though I was scared.
What an idiotic move
That's like being in broad daylight as I steal the Mona Lisa from the Louvre.
I never meant to bother you
I didn't mean to stick to you like glue.
Don't worry, I'll leave
But you have to promise to go too. Don't tease.
Let's just leave each other be.