her bare shoulder
decorated wrists
shaking
her heart
beating
you thought
she was defeated
but
she was
unstoppable

and
i think
some part of
me
figured
it would end
before
i had to deal
with any of
the hard
stuff

and there we were
for one second rushing through millions, time felt like it had just...stopped
and it was just us
it was your lips on my neck
and your fingers pressed on my skin
it was our clothes strewn on the floor and my legs brushing up against you
it was the feeling of being desperately needed that filled the air around us
and engulfed our bodies

...you had me, then. you had all of me.

it's like the feeling of waves washing over you
his fingertips were dipped in starlight
lips sinking on my skin
and i was drifting away

because
they will not kiss your scars
and will not say
the right things
at the right times
even if you are crying
devastated
and
God will not
project down from the heavens
to hold you
and speak, and tell you
you are strong
(you must know this
on your own)
life will not stop for you
even when
you are begging
gasping for air
drowning in reality
endlessly in self doubt
but
you must know
**** the ones who made you cry
**** a God who stands in silence
as you pray, worship
for nothing
you are not weak because of him
you are not strong through Him
you are
beautiful
and lovely
and strong
because of
you
(and i think
that is pretty extraordinary)