I love you but you love her
she loves vain..
Love's what you gave her
while i gathered pain..

I love you but you dont love me
Now im blaming myself for being lonely
Is that what love is all about?
pure of nothing but doubts?

Summer begins but i love you still
promise myself to love you until..
A man wakes me up from my dreams
Showed me that love is not bad as it seems

He loves me but i dont
I will love you endlessly but to him i wont
How could i be such a dumb?
From the pain you've caused me im already numb

Then you continue loving her
Not minding my presence here
If only walls could speak
Then he will tell me whom i should pick

I continue myself for being blind
All saints day have been forgotten in my mind
Because everyday i'm already suffering from grief
Not minding anyone as time drifts..

He gave me a rose while u gave me a torn
He gave me light while you watch me burn
Why are you so blinded with my emotion?
Why cant you take Mr. truth's revelation?

December begins to froze the air
While me here sitting wounded in a stair
I gave you heaven while she gave you hell!
She gave you thunderstorm while i gave you bell

Here i am with this comfort and care
While you treat me like a crap and so unfair
You once told me you care for me but now you dont
Why you keep on telling me to forget you when you know **** well i wont?

Again i'm trapped in a love chain
Where it brought me a hundred folds pain
I love you but you love her
He loves me but why am i crying here?

I just wished to start a year with you
But you wished to spent it with her too
I gave you my love but you take it away
Now i will give it to a man who will love me every single day..

I see you
We are the same
But we must shed our layers
Our pride
Our distance
All the things we assume to be true

It is our weakness that separates us

It is our fears that controls us

We cling to race
To flags
To Gods
And to gold
Because we are afraid

But the world that was promised
Is about faith
In God
And in love

We say we believe in God
And we say we believe in love
But we are lost

We accuse
Each another

We hate
Each other

We reject
Each other

We hide our hearts
Out of fear
We do not believe we are strong
So we run away
From love
From each other
And pretend to be strong

We are afraid of rejection
We give another human all the power
The power to destroy us
The power to judge us
By their standards
And not God's

In the night
All alone
In your silence
Your honesty is awake
That is who you are
Though I cannot see you then

What would happen if I was there?

But I see you now
We are the same
And now I stand naked before you

Look at me

I have nothing to hide
I don't care what you know about me
It doesn't matter
I am still what I am
Weak
Fearful

Because I only know that I am not long for this world
I can dig my grave now
I have a spoon
You see silver
I see rust

At least I don't have to use my hands

There is nothing that I can prove about what I know

There is nothing that I can prove about what I have done

There is nothing but us

There is nothing but love

But where is it?

Nothing familiar is the answer
It is always someone you don’t understand
Finding meaning
Outside our own means
As if they have nothing to lose
And they don’t
They do not think of their parents
Or what they were taught
Except for facts
Warding off
Things that are unexplained
Strange
Scary
Secret societies
Dystopian
Cold
Every institution of man
Rejected
As man withdraws from convention
Stirring the drink
With a hint of every influence
Without burden of form
Changing course on a whim
Fully versed in possibility
Stopping along the way
Every corner
To explore
For days and days
Forgetting the mission
Except to learn
A being of discovery
Courageous failures
Skeptical of every word
Unless it is their own questions
Enduring shock
Smiles instead of fears
No sense of consciousness
The natural act of a man unafraid
Except his own existence
Because then he has to acknowledge yours
And though he loves you
He cannot just sit next to you
And watch flowers return to their rightful place
So you can grimly smile that what you always wanted
May only be counted in moments instead of days
That become years
Though each moment is what he wanted all along
Because time is nothing to consider
Except how much remains

we fell in love and
      it was like diving into
            the cold, salt water

                                   then one day you just
                               left, waves tossed violently
                                       and we were over

                                                      one day my heart broke
                                                           ­     like glass bottles on rigid
                                                           ­                 rocks beneath water

She is lost
but she refuses to ask for directions
Because she has always been good at navigating
and she will refuse to acknowledge
that suddenly
she doesn't know
where she is anymore

So instead she wanders
around in circles
For days, weeks, months
And as the days blend into one
she finds that she doesn't even recognise
her surroundings anymore
and she can't even remember
how it felt before she was lost

Meanwhile her friends and family
don't notice she is missing
Too busy with their own lives
to realise she is no longer there

And now she's scared
That she has wandered too far
and too deep
That when she screams for help
Nobody will hear her

first a date, then a kiss
love songs are made of this
you’ll say I’m beautiful
I’ll love your smile

you’ll promise crazy things
I’ll dream of diamond rings
we can be innocent
just for a while