Stop it!
Just stop it all!
I don't want this anymore.
I don't want these tainted memories!
You're constantly there, even when you're not.
I can't seem to escape the madness in my mind.
Every time I close my eyes you're there. Grinning at me.
Why do you torture me so? What have I done to deserve this?!
I've done what you've asked and let you be yet here you are still plaguing me!
What more do you want?
I'm tired, drained and done with all of this.
I just want to lay in bed at night and sleep with no issue.
I just want to move on with my own life and be happy.
I just want to be me again.
But you're there... holding the half of me I need to be whole again.
Anxiety flare ups of my ex are happening again. Out of no where they hit me and it may have almost costed me my job the other day. I'm just so done with this pain. I've done everything I can but nothing seems to work anymore.