Such a vivid dream.
She walked up and wrapped her arms around me.
I remembered the way it felt when she's hold me close.
I guess I sorta miss it.
Last night I had a dream.

Such a vivid dream.
It was about her.
I miss her and wish she was here.
She made the choices she did.
I loved her a lot.
But now we are nothing but a past.

Such a vivid dream.
We sat in the grass at mendive.
We walked around the halls at the boys and girls club.
Over to the kids side.
I remember the staff would get mad.
Yes I do miss what we had.

So today is earth day.
A day where we celebrate.
After all the earth has done,
We treat it like ****.
We are slowly killing it.
We are filling it.
Filling it with trash and gunk.
Making it smell worse than a skunk.
We are contributing to global warming.
Yes we are killing the earth here is a warning.
Stop.
Let the earth live.
Stop killing it.

Alone here I am in this empty house.
Only thing I can here are the squeaks of dying mouse.
My cat has it by its neck.
Wait that's not correct.
The mouse bleed out on my floor.
Now it is a mouse no more.
So here I am here alone.
Just sitting here in the empty zone.
The room is dull.
The world is old.
Here in this empty house.
I can no longer hear the squeaking mouse.

Kindal
Crush
Kendal
Crush
**** my brain is exploding.
Kendal
Crush
It's a rush!!!
Too many pills.

I'm going to egg a house.
I shall walk to the door quiet as a mouse.
Take the white egg.
Fire away!!!
Egg splats.
Sorry I slashed your tires leaving them flat.
Shouldn't have ****** with me *****.
Hope u got a tow hitch.
Your car payed for your actions.
Can't wait to see your reaction.

Stress...
Sometimes it's wearing a dress.
Other times it's taking a test.
Girl! Chill take a rest.
There are many ways to deal.
Remember stress is very real.
You can bake a muffin.
Be careful not to burn your hand in the metal tin.
You can read a book.
Even if that book is on how to cook.
You can take a walk.
or talk and talk.
Curse under your breath.
Or you know just give it a rest.
You are alive and well.
Life is pretty swell.
Sweet girl just breath.

Indeed I fight.
I write and write.
No no violence.
Violence is how people get killed.
Can't have that happen now can we?

Instead I stay up at night.
I write and I write.
The voices that scream in my head.
I put them on paper.

I've lost most of the light.
I write and write.
A friend drags me back.
Put discovering the light takes time.
Time I don't have.

The silver bites.
I write and write.
The silver runs down places only I see.
Others can't because it's covered.
Nobody sees thin lines.
Nobody sees scars left behind.

It exposes my frights.
I write and I write.
The shadows that haunt me.
They tap the wall in the dark.
Mom says they aren't real.
Dad says it's not a big deal.
I hear them.
They want me to do things.
Terrible unthinkable things.
Luckily I have some self control.
Barely enough.

I walk on a line that's very tight.
I write and I write.
The line can snap anytime.
It has before.
It left me falling into nothing.
Chae pushed me off balance.
I fell for someone not worth falling for.
I fell hard for someone not worth falling for.
Please help me.
I don't sleep anymore.
Atleast not without the drugs.
Not without the silver.
Not without the voices.
Not without her.
I still feel her here.
Somehow I'm glad she's gone.
I like staying up with the voices.

So in the dark of the night...
I write and I write.