my eyes are the first to open
when his lips touches mine
because somehow I thought
I am in the middle of
kissing you

the thing is,
I drive far away
just to see the road signs
pleaded me to return
the bumps on the street
forced me to stop
the turns I took further
lead me to dead-ends
eventually, I hit reverse
and come back home
to where you are

I close my eyelids
and all I can recall
is the last night
where his lips
on my forehead
hand inside my hair
and heart beating
to stay with mine

do you see me in your room?
laying there with smiles that bloom
do you see me in your car?
sitting next to you, never too far

my eyes swim through our photographs today
wondering why our happiness did not stay
tonight I will sleep wearing your white shirt
dreaming of your memories until they don't hurt

there is a world I knew
where time stood still
with the happiness
I built with you

"I like another girl,
you have to let me go"

using a simple line last night
you destroyed that world
until there is no more light

that night, I was drunk
unconsciousness pulled me back to him

that night, I know he was there
his finger were wiping my tears
I felt his heart opened like never before

that night, he held me like a goodbye
that night, he kissed me like a promise
that night, he loved me until it hurts so bad, I cried

after that night, he stopped talking to me
—he quit looking for me, he left me
and after that night, I swear I will love again

*only if he promised he won't return to me

there I stood
trying to steady my balance
cause I felt the earth shook
when my eyes caught a glimpse
of you kissing her lips
as softly as how you used
to kiss mine