the first time he saw me cried
was the night I told him about you
cause it's so tragic how much he loves me
and I love you

look at me

look at me and tell me what you see

no need to patronize me with lies
you know I am not powerful
nor beautiful
I am the symbol of devastation
and self-destruction

so don't tell me you love me
if you only end up throwing me away
don't speak the word promise
when you refuse to stay

now turn your head
don't look at me

say your farewell
before you begin anything

I promise to remember all the laughters you've given me.
From that faithful night where I found love from our first kiss in 2014
to the moment it puts a smile on my face and stabs my chest at the same time today.
Never had I really quit asking why I walked away and why you let me.
If you ever read this, know that you are still the warrior of my heart's battlefield.
The one beautiful art which I carved with my tears.
The muse behind every lines of my poetry.

*And the love I love beyond love ever allowed to love.

He paints rainbow
—lights the shooting star
hit me hard like an arrow
left me with the biggest scar

and you know
the moment I step my feet
outside that big door
I will regret;
every laughter we can't share
all the tears we cannot bear
the home we both swear
and you know
you know very well
I will always care

tonight
I surrender
a certain feeling
of my deepest heart
made from crystal
and starlight
so the moon
can whisper it
to you,
my love
tonight

there is a line I see between us
in the middle of friends and lovers
a line which gets thinner simultaneously
with every quick notes we pass in secrecy