its been about 9 years since you stopped making me keep your twisted secrets

you are the reason that blood dripped from my finger tips every night for so long

I'm finally strong enough to know none of this was my fault
Bet yet still to weak to run to get help for the other little girls who are probably your victims.

Sorry for taking your innocence
Although it is not my hands clawing at your child thighs
For they are his
And i am sorry.

A shadow flickered across my walls from the lit candle in my bed room and part of me wished it was your presence blowing it away like you used too ******* away with every amazing word of advice you spoke.

I can only wish upon every gleaming light in the sky that you are out there somewhere watching over me, protecting me from all the bad that this world has to offer.

i  base  my  worth
off of how my friends
treat  me,  how  many
beers i can drink before
the taste makes me sick,
and how many times i can
dial your old phone number
and listen to a stranger
remind me of how
disconnected
you are.

He said that he was scared of commitment
scared their relationship would be permanent
             And he couldn't handle that

*but his skin was covered in tattoos.

I want to go deeper
I want to feel the pain
But I'm scared that once I get there
I'll never go back again