It was on the 182nd floor
When I first saw you and my heart
began to soar.
It wasn't long after that day
I begain to relize I would have to pay,
For the love you never deserved in the first place.
Days went by as I became broke
Looking at you I had started to sulk.
Realizing you'd never love me
like I'd loved you
All those day spent thinking of you?
And you never gave a single ****.
You watched me follow you like a dog
But i'd never envisioned you thought of me like a hog.
You're a ******* I hope you know
And I should of never went to that show,
On the 182nd floor
Where I had no idea my heart
had accually started to sore,
And I've had a realization now you're accually
a ******* *****.

I keep having this dream over and over again where I am drowning. I'm at the surface, paddling at the choppy waves, screaming, water crashing against me. And you are standing on the dock, holding a rope, and you look out at me like you're about to throw it to me and save me but you turn away and throw it to her instead I keep having this dream.

You care about everyone and
you care about their problems
you always have

but now you don't care that
I've got glass in my heart
or that God wants me
dead

and what do you do when
the person who takes care
of everyone won't
take care of you?

I remember letting you read my books once and I think that's when I really let you in, when I told myself I was ready to once again trust someone to understand every explicit side of myself. Now you've made a nest inside, burrowed into the deepest corners, and I can't get you out and I can't let anyone in and I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to trust you with my words again.

But when the zombies come pounding
On the door of my dorm
All I can think is
Who will come save me from the apocalypse now?

I'll carve your name
In to my skin
In hopes that you'll say mine
Again.