In the literally opinion of my own conscience,
I followed and dropped into the pool of swirling hopeless life,
Rotating as I shout my prayers, drowning.
I yelled and panic take over,
Water surges into my lungs, suffocating, coughing and vomitting water..
Slowly and painfully dying,
I died in vain,
In the lie of my own hopeless conscience.

Eleven Eleven,
You were telling me you can’t,
I was assuring you, we can,
This,
This is not the end,
You’re just doubting,
But I know you can, we can,
And this is possible,
But you were like “I know, but,”
And giving excuses, lots of them,
Nothing good ever comes from “I know, but”
Why, why give up so easily?
It's not easy to build this,
And you’re turning it into a monument,
Of our sweetest memories?
I’ve poured everything, I’ve given you myself,
I’ve let you enter the void,
Of my darkest past,
And you’ve touched it,
Leaving marks all over,
I’m naked in your eyes, undeviatingly,
And you’re leaving?
How it’s so easy for you,
It’s my fault isn’t?
I trusted you too fast,
I opened up myself to you too fast,
I let you have a feast on my feelings too fast,
Perhaps,
I love you, too fast,
Eleven Eleven,
Marks the end of our connection,
The lost of our endearment.

My untrue fantasy,
I fantasize it every day,
Fantasizing how it would be wonderful if I had you,
Oh the world seems to be having summer all year long,
With you and me,
My untrue fantasy will never be true,
Fantasizing is the only way I could be with you,
I am not capable of doing so in the ticking world,
This fantasy
This fantasy will always be the most exciting play of
  
Hologram in my mind.

I was alone,
In this burning desire,
To be touched by you,
To be loved and loved,
And you take me soaring high up in the sky,
Getting me higher and higher,
But you let me down,
When you got what you need,
When you’ve fulfilled your lust,
And I’m free falling,
From Ten Thousands Feet,
Without you, I’m doomed,
Certain death,
And I crashed,
So hard, brutally injured,
Almost died you see,
But I know I’m strong,
At least my heart is,
But I am barely breathing,
From the free fall you lured me,
From Ten Thousands Feet,
I’ll survive cause I’m strong,
At least my heart is.

When my heart is a mirror,
I will not look at it anymore,
Left it in mediocre,
Feeling indifferent and could not care less,
Living in pure guilt,
Scarcely breathing,
Mostly suffocating lunacy,
Not once that I look at it,
Not even a glimpse,
I am ashamed of myself,
Left my beliefs in the black hole,
Lower my standards just to meet yours,
Go down to the levels of foolishness,
I drowned myself,
My right hand is tightly holding the life line,
My left hand will never let you go,
In between them,
Me, I’m drowning in my own self pity,
Pride or feelings,
Should I care less and leave you,
Should I fight for you and sacrifice comfort,
You make my heart turn mirrors,
And I hate my own reflection.

I need a preach,
I need assurances,
To hold me still,
To built steel’s hard faith,
I’m diverting,
Astray,
Starting questioning,
Belief,
And ebbing briskly,
My trust,
Hope’s dwindling,
I’m ruined,
I need a preach,
I need assurances,
To hold me back,
From this fall, I’m falling,
Before I’m shattered,
Broken and sinned.

There was a sun but no shines,
There was a drizzle but no rainbow,
There was a wave but no wind,
There was a clear night sky but no stars,
There was a vow but no promises.

Moonless night are approaching,
Sunless days are at dawn,
Cloudy skies are upon us,
A sad story is to be written.

There was a day when I could talk
but no voice,
There was a day when I could open my eyes
but could not see,
There was a day when I can breathe
but could not be alive,
There was a day when I can hear nothingness
creeps into my soul.

Grey coloured rainbow,
Happiness are at dusk,
Misery are at dawn,
prepare yourselves to be blown,
by the wind of Capricorn.