Maybe I'll never find someone who truly understands me
And be with me , when all I am scattered broken glass
When I am too scared of even myself

Maybe I'll have to accept all the pain coming in my way
Just like I am still doing
Just the way most of us do
And just like the tears of pain never stop

Maybe I'll live forever in my perfect dreams
Like the ones , where everything seems too good
Which even make you wish to never wakeup again
Where everything happens according to the way you want

Maybe for a second I'll love the thought of being in love
Like the famous Romeo and Juliet
Like rose and Jake
And Like the poets falling in love with the words

Or maybe I'll keep longing for this till I die.
Like I always wish i was never born.

I'm scrambling trying to find the pieces
And I would like to say a few things
1)  I'm sorry
I start to see the fear of what made me
What made me will break me
I carry this familiarity like a knife to my skin
And I'm scrambling to fill the bleeding holes with the very things that Caused them to bleed
I am thoroughly convinced I could destroy an entire city with my hands
Which brings me to point two
2) Don't take it personally if I stay three steps away when you come close
I'm a ticking tomb in a building that starts to burn when I crumble
My mind is the building
Every story
Every window
A part of the person I used to be
3) I don't want to die
I still can't figure out if the building is the people I love
Or if it's myself
But It  burns just the same
I don't want to die