No one gives a **** what is in your heart until
it comes out from your mouth!

You held my hand Before I stepped on the stage..
We took a few steps together..
While climbing the stairs of the stage you lightly tightened the grip and suddenly left.
Made a hand gesture and showed me the way, I had to walk alone..
You showed me a thumbs up and tried to encourage me..
And while holding the mic I smiled and realized that my imagination power is fabulous!!

Sometimes shadow can
be your best friend,
When the sun shines
and hinders your vision,
shadow is the only one
who stands with you!

We remember the pain but not the happiness.

We remember the results but not the struggle behind that.

We remember the worst but not the best moment.

We remember the adulthood but not the puerility!!

You know it's love when the world becomes tiny than his eyes in her life

Let's just sink into the deep water
With wide arms and fist open
eyes closed and heart with no emotion.

Let's just spill the ink
With no words on it just some tear and drink.

Let's just get stuck in the sand
With no will to live and no need to pretend

Day to day I am getting confused
The metaphor of future haunts me in my head.

I do not know why I am poised towards the scary future letting my present unseen!

The fate of every tear is to fall
But it was my curse
that every drop could not even crawl!!

No no do not take off the mask
I know to wear it all day is a big task
But my little lamb you are still someone's vision.

You can't let anyone know the inner turmoil
so Breath normally.
You can't let anyone know  the reality
so smile lightly.
You can't let anyone know the broken self-confidence
So Do not make eye contact with anyone.

You can't let anyone see your swelled up eyes
So put your shades over your eyes.

You can't let anyone notice  your self-harm
So Unfold sleeves to cover your cuts and bruises.

Now finally
Take off the mask now you are under your roof.
I know you put it for no other reason but to make people goof!

Take off the mask which you put before facing the world.
This mask you put acts as a shield against the hurled!

The world never accepts the bitter truth that everyone has to put a mask
over their reality to survive under this fake planetary!!

They want to sit in aeroplane and travel the whole world together but their bodies are not in condition to do so.

They want to ride a horse and play polo but their age does not allow them to do so.

They want to be happy and enjoy every moment but their white hair makes every moment tasteless.

They want that as a couple their partner should die first or both of them should die together so that after their death no one can hurt their partner but their destiny does not let them to do so.

The darkest dream of 'I will die soon' haunts their real dreams, desires and themselves.

They are the cutest couple of every family 'GRANDPARENTS'.

I do not know what kills my excitement of the festival.
I do not know who ends the trust once I used to build on someone.
I do not know when love became a synonym for pain and regrets.
I do not know why I laugh so much when it's hard to even smile.
I do not know how I suddenly forget to talk or to answer anyone.


When I anticipate about myself
I have definitely lost myself somewhere

I was waiting for him on the escalator on one side of the road 
My Heart pumped at the highest rate when all at once realized abode.

Saw him looking generously dashing riding a scooter
He was wearing a white t-shirt and jeans and his hair were messy but modish.
And here I was standing in my usual tank top and jeans,
hair tied in a messy ponytail
just then He saw me, waved And parked his vehicle near my usual bus stop
I walked to his way with my bag full of books.


We sat on the bench and started random talks about everything except what we thought about.  
He then started using his phone and I was beginning to feel ignored. He on a spur of moment stopped and stared me and mentioned about our chats and phone calls
"How it started"
"How it became more Frank and comfortable"
"How good friends we became online but never met in real life" strange isn't it?

Then I told him I have to leave and the 'awkward silent moment' and he finally spoke "yeah"

We shook our hand and he refused to let me go
So I smiled and left his hand and eye contact and stood in the row

The bus started moving and I saw him standing there only, shrugging his shoulder and leaving that place.

That was my first and last with him or anyone!!

One more time raise your voice, my little girl
One more time hold the ***** hand approach you
One more time cut that tongue that gave you the names
One more time take the  avatar of empowered "Maha Kali"
One more time be UNSTOPPABLE

Look in the ashes,
there is a hidden spark  somewhere,

Now look into my eyes,
what you see is only COLD DUST!!

.................................
You and I are like,
Red lipstick and a girl's lips.
A piece of lime and tequila's nips..

Cup of coffee and "The fault in our stars".
A candlelight dinner and you with a guitar.

Dried soil and the first drop of rain.
Morning tea with Rainbow and dinner with  Fountain..

full moon night and desert sand.
‎you and I are like a strand♥♥

The only tiny wish I said every time
I blew a dandelion
I lightened up a candle
I prayed in front of God
I threw a coin in flowing water

      is that I may not be a part of someone's happy moment.
But dear almighty give me that much strength to be a primer in someone's dark instant!!

I kept my hands over my ears
the reason behind is my country's tears..

They keep saying
we live in a country where **** and ****** are meaning less
Debating on politics and religions are mandatory..

It breaks my heart to read or listen words like this for my nation
But the problem is not my country but our thinking, perception, unity and Emotion..

Hashtags like #notmyindia have to be #iamnothatindian
Cause each one of us can dominate our motherland being politician or comedian.

One day I sat down in my bathroom,
Might be because of the cold wall behind me
Or maybe because what I just saw in the mirror
"the new me".
I saw a deep skinny girl apparently me
The thinness of the neckline scared my soul,
The pale color covered my whole,
Lips were darkened,
Eyes were dull,
Face looked like almost dead,
That day I felt the most lethal fear of mine.
Commonly named as BODY SHAMING.

If I were to punch you
I would punch your heart straight not akin you did  because your wound will surely meliorate!!

The fate made us Cry Everyday!!

So Cry
             but not even in front of Mirror!
Cry out loud..
             but your screams should be silent!
Cry as much as You can,
            but your face should always be filled with Smile!! :)

That moment I just felt life is temptation
It starts..
My erosion of self

That moment I shed my tears in front of everyone..
And hope to find a hand over my shoulder of someone..

I felt like a flower which covered with snow.
struggling inside but externally it glow.

You met me once and left me for your laws
I started digging myself for my unknown flaws..
‎
That moment I just felt life is temptation
It starts..
My erosion of self