I hope you have
A happy birthday
You never let me know
Born on the longest night
Severed from my soul

But I was first
To see your eyes
And feel your misery
Now you hide deep inside
But you could also leave

I'm sorry I went away
The choice was never mine
But if I had but one wish
I'd hope you'd read this rhyme
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Once again the light of day shines forth
And the drunkenness of dreams subside
Sober thoughts embrace the moment
Slowly this brokenness mends inside

Oh, to be young again cries my inner child
To deprive this nature of life so vile
As the thought slips away I sadly smile
I ponder my days, so many more miles

To be with you again, my body sustains
To share but a moment, my mind remains
My soul lets me know that there’s life to be lived
Deep in my heart there love yet to give…..

Swirling spiral of anti-matter
Cascading down an endless ladder
In non-corporeal states
Spirits search for their soul mates
One taste and we miss our goal
And cling to a second-hand role
One state that we all share
Bittersweet and unaware
Feed on life, consumed to death
We devour the world with every breath
Forged by chance, nurtured in deceit
We glimpse the truth and quickly retreat
Our description becomes indescribable
Our delusions become undeniable

You were once mine for a moment in time
I embraced your accustomed wounds
Used and abused, starving for love
You shone like a Samhain Moon
Yet love is alive, not a lie
Not a manifestation of will
Not a statue of god or paradise façade
Nor some unholy devil’s deal
I was once young with mind undone
Chasing a somber moon
Yet time has devoured
Those dead flowers
Upon that empty tomb

Beauty is hiding the ugliest blemish
Embedded lies in the mind of the squeamish
A feeling such as love cannot be contained
So why insist hatred is preordained

Drawn into gray the eyes do deceive
I capture a leprechaun and stole his disease
And now I hoard over this *** of gold
Refusing to pay the amount that I owe

Take not the day that I long await
Touch not my blue skies, my forest, my lakes
Yet help thyself to the opinion of those
Who embark on life’s journey by selling their souls

Life, it seems a question
That’s answered only in death
A light that leaves your body
As you grasp for your last breath

What comes next
Nobody can know
You came like a dream
And now I’m alone

The tears that I bleed
Are hidden by lies
My love is spread thin
For those I would die

Her eyes gave me access
To see through her soul
Now I've gone blind
How could she let go

If death holds the answer
And love holds the key
Then somewhere beyond
She’s waiting for me

Love lost long ago only dreams can recall
Dented and cracked surfaces defines my walls
Behind the eyes I withdraw
Damaged goods, recycled parts, war of roses, purple hearts
Symphony in C-flat minor, dread in Mozart's armor
Notes on paper survive, to lose, to love, to cry
We die inside, who knows why

Unfulfilled I gather mist
In a garden green I sift
Dirt and greed beneath the leaves
Fallow ground on soiled sleeves
But even worms need breed
Conflicting thoughts are conceived

How the longing lasts beyond midnight
Beyond half-past the pain still bites
Dust mites between sheets of time
Distorted gray fills the mind
Unconscious realms, tormented guilt
Desolate and dreary, the mind wilts

A spark breaches the impenetrable
Glimmers of hope unattainable
The void swallows me whole
And emptiness out of control
Somehow it's me turning the key
The mind's eye refused to see
This unknown alien aspect of me
Taunting me, threatening to remind me
That I am only me

Clandestinely I dream of upheaval
Against that prevalent part so evil
Shall I judge the less and lie
I shake my head and sigh
Cuz fortunately it only hurts
Somewhere inside ...

Fear forged from experience
Like the memory of a burn
Worthy to avoid the lesson learned

But fear of the unknown
Is but a stranger on the phone
Chill bumps climb up the back
Of the child home alone

Candidates for sainthood
Caught up in god's test
Open up your heart
And you'll fear less and less

Rewards are here and now
When you ease a child's pain
Tear down the walls of self-righteousness
Or cast your love in vain...

Could the eloquent of words
impair me?
I see the meanings of what you’ve left behind..
The turmoil of your precious life.
Your sun and moon
by design..
Lie to yourself
in clever entries.
Surely you are the one
the gods envy!

If only
To live in that zone
Yet patterns shift
From hemisphere to hemisphere
Abstractions reside
In the passing of minds
Like manna from heaven
Perhaps
Gather best in the morn

From Artist to con-artist
Manipulation of words depend
On the placement of the wave
In our creative brain

In conclusion
We all return
Sooner or later

What if you ain’t got no money when the stock markets and the economy crashes?
I guess that would just level the playing field, wouldn’t it?

In the moment
Of regrets
In the perils
Of my plea
Time stuttered
And stalled  
And she was rid of me...

In the moment
Of regrets
In the perils
Of my plea
Time stuttered
And stalled  
And she was rid of me...

I must shut you off for now.
It’s summer time
and the river is calling loud!
The canopy and undergrowth
are a diversity of unending floral.
Not many people roam these woods
just me and the squirrels!
I waste no time pulling weeds,
my garden has grown massively!
Life so alive day and night
Been bit and stung
by every bug in flight,
still it feels so right
cool river water
hot summer day
may the water flow your way!

Get out there before it snows..

Please bear with me
'Til my words be read
I am not your enemy
No matter what I said

Relax now
Don't draw a mob
As I said before
I have no problem with your god

Blessed be the light
Of your darkest day
For I would never
   Ever turn you away

But sometimes
there are just somethings
I am compelled to say
Like for instance
  Even though you label me
I love you anyways...

HP won’t
let me
               on…..

And so starts
The day over
Never stay clean
Never stay sober

This is the death
Of all those cares
Subconsciously
Remain unaware

The bottle has been
An old best friend
A handful of pills
And numbness sets in

Just like no love
Just like no friends
And so starts
The day
Over again
...

My body's getting older
I'm timeless trapped inside
the voices in my mind
I'm beginning to recognize

a balance in my nature
flipped upon my path
bridging troubled waters
freeclimbing broken backs

wishes are forgotten
in the changing turning tides
wonders wearily settle
on a blind and tired ride

lovers move on, the connect stays
I know her there, beyond the matrix stage

travelers fall from nowhere
drawn by bright parades
textures faith provides
an sole my soul conveys
..............................

This to shall pass
leaving it’s impurities
a quag·mire of injustice
on a path of tyr·an·ny

At the counter
I paid my fine
a blessing the judge
didn’t give me any time!

You ate every last worm
Of my rotted soul
So...
Soullessly is how I roll

I found a secret behind your eyes
A carefree child ready to fly
As I pondered the possibilities, I felt your touch
Never could I have imagined such...

In the quietness of my docile mind
You dance on the edge of time
In the eve of adulteration
My star shines bright in your constellation
On the wings of passion we shall fly away
On a bed made of dreams we shall lay...

Where are you now my invisible other
Who shares your loving under those covers
It makes no matter for I am your song
Your one and only soul mate
Though I've been gone
The day draws near that it will ignite
We shall be one in all of love's might...

They ascended
Left me
Earth bound
The world
Ended
Yet
I'm still
Around

Flesh
Eating
Monsters
Hunt
Where
I sleep
Still I own
This
Soul
That
You
Seek
...

They ascended
Left me
Earth bound
The world
Ended
Yet
I'm still
Around

Flesh
Eating
Monsters
Hunt
Where
I sleep
Still I own
This
Soul
That
You
Seek
...

Dear universe
I've minimum to report
...
Our world is still spinning
Into entropy
And out of control
We know not yet
What we really
Need to know
Ice and fire
Hot lava and snow
Around and around
The sun we go
Gravity held
  Inertia repelled
All our matter
Heading for hell

Dear universe
Just letting you know!

What if we stripped away all the barriers that separate societies?
What if the whole earth became one people with dignity for all?

Are you thinking about what this would do to your money?
Ya that's the problem with our kind.
We're not really on the immigrants side.

Life is one big soul test.

Good night my love
Alone I lay
The heart grows heaver
With the end of day
A wandering mind
In a maze of rhymes
Gathering poetry
From vanished times
Lovers eyes
Slit the night
A poetic mind
Possesses sight
To see the wrong
In an artistic light
Where the beauty
Of pain sadly ignites
And there a spark
In the dread of dreams
A mirror reflection
Of what could have been
While alone I lay
In my dark room
Rocking and a rolling
And a howling
At the moon
...........................

I’ve no need
To Rebel
Who is god
I can’t tell
The creator
Of time
The drawer
Of lines
The giver
The taker
Of hell?
A bit
Too much
For my soul
   To tell....

Take one cup of envy well ripened
Grind to a fine powder of discontent
Add one ounce fear blinded with unwarranted revenge
Shake well in your heated fist of anger
Until your heart hardens to stone
Stuff that cotton of madness
In those ears that refuse to listen
As I beg you to fogive me
Hear not my words of empathy
As you cast those stones
That silences my fading voice
As I gasp for my last breath...

Then may your god bless you!

I was once one of you
No longer do I laugh
Life's no longer funny
When the train jumps off the track

With eyes that no longer shine
And hearts that no longer break
These wheels keep on spinning
On this trip through outer space...

The spiral down
Holds you tight
No matter how
Hard you fight
Seems like such
A waste of time
When you find life
Is the killing kind

No time to laugh
No time to cry
No time to believe
A single lie
First you’re born
Then you die
No time to say
Your last goodbye

Oh, but I hold on tight
‘til this breath is gone
Nothing lasts forever
It only lingers on...

Echoes of the past
Mixed with new memories
We are only here for a little while

Weather on the way
More work than play
Until, that is...
The Spirit start's to smile
...

Those were heated words spewed out in accordance with emotions.
Such are the energies we generate.
That is okay
cause now we’re in the moment.
Gather your thoughts and make amends, the Karma we receive is the energy we send.

I would never wish to see two countries on earth fighting each other.
This is home to our precious human race.
I’m sorry to say but religions and ethnicities are a stumbling block on the road to spiritual growth.

That’s what god let me know.

By the way
if your world is unstable
and you can’t afford to wait.
My heart goes out to those who meet the bottom of their fate.
I can’t pretend to understand the nature of such Folly!
But I’m sure somewhere demonic energy has got its fill of jolly’s..
Myself, I often wonder what will happen next.
This world has lost its cohesion and the spirits can barely connect.

Did you do the work,
get your train on track?
Hearts get burnt out
That’s just a fact.

Did you learn to swim
in the deeper end
Did you trust the hands
that let you go?
Relax…
Panic rewires the venerable!

Will you face some more
with head held high?
peace is a war
fought inside
……………..

The awaited bottom
Is but a thump
Another
Life down
Another bump
Upon yer soul
Upon your
Quasi Moto
****
We gather lifetimes
Of spiritual lumps
....

I don’t get lonely, solitude is my best friend. I do like to visit every now and then.
I don’t behave the way I use to, just to be one of the gang.
I don’t need a “that a boy!” I’m no longer looking for my status quo of fame.
My old friends don’t understand me, something about me has changed.
I’m no longer interested in pretending we’re all at the same stage.

They take me a fool
because of my morals compass.
And still I fear their paths.
I don’t need to search any further to know the cosmic math!
I use to pretend that all was real, I’ve taken my spin on the karmic wheel.
Comfortably the wheel has slowed and now my heart beats strong with all I know.
With all I’ve learned but not enough, I gather my strength when life gets rough.
See through my eyes, open your mind, dig a little deeper in this spiritual rhyme..

This is a poem
About ***
Deep lustful
Honey dripping
Perhaps you'll be next
But then again
This is a poem
About sin
And in the end
Sin always
Seems to wins
So instead
This is a poem
About doubt
Because surety
Is but a silent shout
And all these thing
I need to get out
That's what poetry
Is all about!

I lost him
A while ago
Every now and then
People still greet him
I’m not sure
Who they thank
“I am”

Yet he came around
Just the other day
He took the reins
While I was unaware
He insisted that everybody
Go outside and stare up at the stars
It was a magical moment

Man can he party!
I woke up the next day with a hangover
And he was gone again
So why you’re out there
Stumbling around in your daily life
Go outside look at the sun look at the stars
Don’t wait for Tim to show up.

Where are you now
My reckless desire
Come share my warnth
You sweet ***** liar
Tell us not of
The truth of souls
Burn the bridges
   When you go...

Who are you now
Slight of my dreams
Long gypsy nights
Shrill banshee screams
Follow me down
The path of split ends
Into the shadows
   Of all that has been...

Differently
This time around
The roots of tomorrow
Are no longer bound
No debt can ever
Truly be paid
No reward last forever
And even less than a day

Differently now
Don't lose heart
Begin again
This marks the start
Spring has sprung
The days of new
The power to change
Is within you...

A seed of type
  dormant within
10 to 20 years
can slip pass
again and again..

Still the seed is sprouting
in every part of life
I can see it in my children
I can feel it in my wife.

A bean stalk so grandeur
it stretches to the sky
I wouldn't let another 10 years
of good living pass me by.

I found no comfort
Cradled in Mother’s arms
And I never believed Father
Could protect me from all harm…

So I should have seen it coming
A world without love
Empty of compassion, void of mercy
False faith in gods above…

Faceless now, nowhere now
Is my loveless yesteryears
Abandoned as the stepchild
Who pretends to disappear…

I found no comfort in
Studying ancient words
It all adds up to trusting in
Stories so absurd…

So take me now, wash me now
There’s nowhere now for these pieces that won’t fit
Force a square peg of logic in a round hole of superstition
And brokenness is what you’ll get…

Keep your attention on the stage
everyone's an actor in a play,
each mask a separate scene
every sleeper has a dream.

Roles are gifted to the blessed
There is no one that god love less
Those of us who’s hell unfolds
We simply play and then we go…

Perhaps we all could merge
before the waking
before the purge
these are not just poetic words!

Love is open arms
in the spotlight of source
We are the stars of our own shows
The leading actors of course!

A song was playing
In my head
When they came and
Took me away
It beats upon my bones
'Till this very day
But
I refuse to believe
I’m bad
No matter
What most people says

The prosecutor pointed
Till the end of days
The judge slammed
His gavel
And put my *** away
It never was completely over
As if the debt was never paid
Now I wear society’s
Mark of sinner Cain
.....

There's a lot of good people in this world
People who would like to see a better world
Unfortunately it's out of our control
That is if, your ideology is to
"Stay the status quo"
Did you just get comfortable?
Close your eyes and play your role
I have everything I need
Yet my world is not complete
My connection to the world
Will never disconnect
I possess true love
Which parallels deep regret
That's why I'm an activist
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Beyond these pages
I'm still alive
Raring to live
    Before I die...
At least another
Hundred
Thousand miles
Wheels swiftly spinning
A Traveler wearing a smile
Perhaps we'll meet
Along the way
Have you ever been
To outer space?
We could watch
The moon go by
From a dark
Starlit sky
.....

Raw and wild
A  rollercoaster mile
Tails of flames
Shining stars untamed

Across dark sky
Shooting stars descend
Even the brightest stars
Burn out in the end

But burnt out stars
They burn so bright
In the peaceful calming  
Starlit nights...