Toya the Ruthless

Toya the Ruthless Jan 2021

I write and I write thinking it helps
It only distracts me from myself.

Toya the Ruthless Dec 2020

Awoken abruptly
It burns my brain like acid
I dissolve, absolute fear
I would rather die than feel this
Indescribable terror
Non-escapable

This poem relates to my experience of growing up with a brother who has sleep terrors. The fear of waking up to someone screaming cannot be expressed in words. Absolute terror is awful and I hope none of you ever experience it.

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Toya the Ruthless Dec 2020

My bad obsession

I think of you every minute of every day.

This has made me lose myself

I need to be me, if you are to ever love me.

Often the feelings of love make your loved one an idol. However, without you being you, what is there to love? If you enjoyed this poem please comment or share it with someone who would enjoy it!

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Toya the Ruthless Dec 2020

College life

Softly played music soothes
The wind howls as cars pass.
The fluorescent light shines on me.
Alone by myself, in a small room.
Paying for stress and work.
A slave of my own making.
I hope it will be worth it.

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Toya the Ruthless Dec 2020

Friendship kills love

The burning continues, i'm on fire
Consuming me and growing, unceasingly.
I hope that you start on fire as well
if you throw water, I will die out.
Then glowing embers will fade away.

There is nothing worse than developing feelings for a "friend". Once they know how you feel, the future is up to them. If you enjoyed the poem, leave a comment or share this with someone who would appreciate it!

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Toya the Ruthless Dec 2020

The cold front

Outside air flirts with skin
numbing effect slowly creeping
gusting air, a soft assault
makes me grasp my jacket tight

This poem is written about the North Dakota wind, which is brutal! f you enjoyed the poem, leave a comment or share this with someone who would appreciate it!

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Toya the Ruthless Dec 2020

Tears of healing

O bitter tears!
wetting my face, stinging my eyes
The weight of life draws you out
All could go wrong, you would be lost
Weeping bitterly is painful healing
I am glad to heal, glad to hurt
O blessed healing!

Sometimes crying can be the only way to truly process your emotions. If you enjoyed the poem, leave a comment or share this with someone who would appreciate it!

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