They say, words hurt the most.
Is it?
Actions can even hurt more,
Seeing somebody dancing with someone else,
Seeing everybody together while u are alone,
Seeing the cold hard truth, that nobody´s calling u
Seeing all the love that is given, but not to you,
Seeing ur dreams crumble into pieces,
What does a word even mean,
If all these actions show you the cold hard truth,
Words can be a lie, an act of insecurity,
But actions,
They´ll let you crumble.

It´s such a shame
that u were interested in the first place
I´ts such a shame that u gave me these signals
I´ts such a shame that u saw me the first time
It´s such a shame that u gave me your number
I´ts such a shame that it was all for nothing
Such a shame that u never texted me,
Such a shame that it never had a meaning,
Now I´m left with insecurity and a hopeless mind.

Can´t help thinking about what we could be
I will always think about the opportunity
Possibility that we could have been a thing,
You and I together
Creating magical moments,
You and me against the world,
You proving me wrong,
That I ain't less,
That I am someone,
That I am special,
But that didn't happen..

All i wanted was  love,
To love and to be loved by someone,
To hold you´re hand,
To feel secured,
But I have these questions,
They are laid in my mind,
They lay on my mind,
These questions.

I know i´ve been struggling with love
And I know that I ́m aching due to love,
I don ́t know why im in pain, i´m with questions
Why am I feeling this pain and having these questions

It is so unfair,
That I´m left with this pain
After hope for a gain,
A new life ahead,
A new breeze in the air,
A cushion to spare,
But I´m left in despair.
Left with all of these questions.

Now that I feel I cannot take you´re hand,
My heart has failed, there´s nothing ahead.
I opened for once and left the door wide open,
I opened for you, but you slightly shut the door.
And I am left with all these questions.

My dear heart wants to love so badly,
But all of these new signals are so scary,
Screaming for endless love,
The one you could never have enough.

Oh hello there love,
there you are again.
bothering my peaceful mind,
looking for trouble,
to let me fall in line.

Do I like it that way?
or not?
Am satisfied..
Cause it is playful
twisting,
turning my world
upside down.

Every time we tell ourselves,
I don´t need love,
love is pain,
love is poison..

But everytime i get myself into it,
the same song
same words
same feeling.
I´m attracted to love
I want to feel love
don´t we all ?

I can completely mess this up again,
And lock myself up,
from anyone that is getting one step closer.
But I can also let it all in,
and finally give in to someone.
Let go of my fear,
my fear of falling,
being hurt,
unwanted..

This time I´m strong enough to be,
Time´s there to open up,
instead of giving up.
You might be my victory,
my first achievement,
and this time I´m letting go
Cause I´m ready.

I stopped believing in love,
Cause they always wanted the pretty girl,
The superior image of the good-looking pearl.

I will never understand that,
Cause my perspective of beauty is far from that.
I keep thinking, what is wrong with me,
I don’t have to look like them to be a thing,
I don’t want to change my looks to be approachable.

I like spending my time on my inner beauty,
I don’t need paintings and **** clothes to be pretty.
I actually like myself, the way I look, the way I present myself.
So I’m sorry if she look’s prettier in your eyes,
The whole image of her stuck in your twisted mind.
I guess it’s your loss that you never gave it a chance to get to know me.

Every time,
A little piece of  this,
A little piece of that,
get's closer to ****** me,
to take over my mind.
Every time,
I believe in this drug,
that walks straigt to my mind,
To fill me up with poison.
You twist me,
Shake me,
Break me.
Until the end comes near,
And all these happy tears,
slightly dissappear.
They won't change my life,
I'm happier living without this fire.