He called me last night, out of the blue and when he said "Hello?" I felt something, it had been so long since I'd heard his voice, It took me a moment to gather my bearings but finally I said "Hello" too.
I shouldn't have answered the call, I know, but its him.. Him. Something about it felt so wrong yet so right, crazy right? there was a silence for a minute or two, just listening to him breath felt like home to me "I heard" he said. "Are you happy?"
I am and I'm not. You see, I still miss the boy I never once forget, I loved him an awful lot but now I have another, I get on well this his mother, he cares like no other, never causes me any grief, never makes me shout and please, I never need to beg him not to leave he's pretty **** loyal you see.
"Yes," I told him "I think so"
He let out a sigh, already I felt the urge to cry.
"That''s all I ever wanted for you, I just wanted you to be happy"
"I know," I said to him. "I miss you."
There was a brief moment of silence and then he said "I miss you too, I think I probably will forever."
It was true for me too, I had to let him know.
"I'm always going to miss you." I said "I never wanted to let you go"
"I know," he told me. "But I'm glad you that you did, I became someone unrecognizable and I loved you enough to know you deserved much better and I'm happy you've got that now."
"Thank you." I whispered.
"I love you," he said "I won't ever call again but I love you, you know that and I'm sorry, sorry for the way it was at the end, sorry for everything. Be happy, ok? Have a great life, I love you."
I never got the change to respond, by the time I opened my mouth and though of something to say in response he was already gone, had disconnected the call. "I love you too," I whispered down the phone to no one at all but I couldn't help but feel as if he had heard me anyway, even though there was no longer anymore on the other end of the phone.