One Of The Tired Souls

One Of The Tired Souls Jan 2017

I Will Apologize
             Everday
      For the rest of This Life
         That I could not paste together
Your broken pieces
       or
        Brighten the darkness
              That haunts the spaces behind
Your eyes*
                      That's all I ever *Meant to Do

#broken #sadness #im #sorry #apologies

One Of The Tired Souls Jan 2017

Icicles

It's the season of aching
For something that I can never quite find a name for
The hint of warmth in midst the frozen air
God,
I still can't find it

*And that's why my heart hibernates
through the winter

#sadness #winter #longing #season #hibernate #icicles

One Of The Tired Souls Dec 2016

Isn't

It still hurts
Missing you
Even though I can have you
At a moments notice
Fingertips on cool glass
You'd be happy to hear from me
This time of year
When we were together most
You were on break
I was inside
But it isn't the same
It just isn't
And I can't surpass the differences in between

#depression #sadness #space #you #miss #different

One Of The Tired Souls Nov 2016

Back Into Focus

I am fading again
Back into grey
Into the background
Peripheral vision
        Movie extra blur
I'm hidden
               So well I can't even see me
Camouflaged
     By all the carnage
                       who's to say
              *how long I'll be gone
       or what will remain when I
                       crawl back  into  *focus

#depression #sadness #scared #back #into #focus #blur

One Of The Tired Souls Nov 2016

Sew

Sew my lips shut
To keep in all the sensations I exhale

Every aching sip of sadness

OR* tangy bout of rage

They are my art
And without them, I am nothing

#poetry #sadness #what #after

One Of The Tired Souls Nov 2016

So Long

Today I sit in silent disbelief
For you have left me
Three years going on eternity
In this world alone

These Days

It isn't disbelief that you are gone
That I have accepted
But how could it have been so long
That I have been without you
How could it have been so long?

**The Suicide Diaries

#suicide #sadness #death #loss #the #diaries

One Of The Tired Souls Sep 2016

Still Not Good Enough

I'm scared and
It's such a familiar feeling
Because everything we are
Once did
And always will
Make me unstable on my feet
Stepping up again
Like we are
To try to restart a history
That has been set on repeat
Is so dangerous
Possibly even
Unwise
Yet here we go
Praying that
This time
It will actually be different
And knowing what I know
Which is what I stand to lose
I'm so ******* afraid
That not for lack of trying
*I'm still not Good enough