One Of The Tired Souls

One Of The Tired Souls Jun 2016

As I stand smoking cancer sticks
In the torrential downpour outside
Drinking the smoke
And breathing out the toxins
An old woman passes
To tell me that death will find me quicker
If I don't stop lighting memories on fire
So I smile at her
Shaking the fog from my eyes
Letting them swim
With all the promises I couldn't keep
Tilting my head to let them drip from my ears
Onto the tired pavement
I lick my weathered lips and
Offer her the words
I've been afraid to say
Since I've been floating on the wind
Without you to keep me grounded
*Do you promise?

#love #loss #cigarettes

One Of The Tired Souls Jun 2016

I Hope You Enjoy That

I can't go home
Because even though you won't be there
You're everywhere
And I remember when that was something I didn't need to escape.
*I hope you enjoy that

#first #good #i #you #me #for #but #left

One Of The Tired Souls Jun 2016

Everything

God I'm so proud of you
You found the things that you want
I hope she's beautiful
And I hope she cares
If I know you at all
Which I know I do
You'll give them everything
Everything you gave to me
Last night you said we
And my heart broke
But swelled just as quickly
With joy
With regret
With pride
I hope it's everything baby
You deserve everything

#im #so #proud

One Of The Tired Souls Jun 2016

The Spaces In Between

How many times
Have I dressed up I'm sorry
Passed blame onto different parts of myself
Pieces of who I am
Juggling reasons
Motivations behind my mistakes
How many frightened goodbye's
Please don't leave me's
I'll always love you's
Have graced your tired ears
Remember when I broke you
Once
Twice
Then again
It used to taste so sweet
That first mending kiss
The one that sewed us back together
Our present, our future
Now there's a tear
That can
But won't be mended
So once again
I'm sorry
Not for the usual things
The ones I can fix
But for the things that I can't
Like you
And like me
The spaces in between

#im #i #let #ill #sorry #call #write #wont

One Of The Tired Souls Jun 2016

Distance To Travel

I walked for miles today
With nowhere to go but away from memories of you
I came home with weak legs
And a tired heart
With so much more distance to travel

#you #missing #midnight #walks

One Of The Tired Souls May 2016

Here

You aren't here
And I wish you were

#you #missing

One Of The Tired Souls May 2016

Incomplete I Feel

Broken ceramic plates
And
Cracked porcelain dolls
And
Glass shards scattered on table-tops
Cannot
Describe how incomplete I feel.

#broken #depression #sadness