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May 2014 Hayleigh

Darkness

May 2014 Hayleigh

Rod E Kok

Darkness

Darkness.

Laying here, alone
        weary
          empty

I've withdrawn into
deep shadows

I can't see the pain

but your voice,
   your condescending rage
rattles against my cage.

I've never understood
you...I blame the drink
for randomly possessing

your eyes
seeing me as a target.

I don't know what to
expect.
   physical or mental
it's all torment.

I'm sick of walking
on the eggshells which litter
that fabric which we used to
lay on
   together.

Now I hide from you,
   from your demons that can't find me
in my darkness.

Darkness.

This is the 4th piece I wrote for the Anxiety collaboration. It is the darkest of them all. This one shows the progression, or rather, the regression of my mindset as I wrote. My mindset was dark, darker and darkest, and then went back up. I believe the poems I wrote reflect that. If you've read the previous two pieces I wrote for the collaboration, I think you will see it as well.

After I wrote this piece, I knew right away that it would not make the cut. It never had a chance to be the final submission to the artist. But I kept it, as it is part of the journey. If I recall correctly, it was this piece that convinced me I did not want to go really dark for my final piece. And so, this poem taught me a lot...about myself, about my poetry, and about what I wanted to contribute to Nicky's collaboration set.

Once again I urge you to not read too much into the words in relation to myself. I do not feel the emotion as written. But please do read the words knowing that somewhere, somebody feels this. The emotion is real. Maybe we can't relate. But that doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

Rod E. Kok
March 2014

#depression #anxiety #darkness #shadows #collaboration

May 2014 Hayleigh

She does the most, he just participates(4&20)

May 2014 Hayleigh

K Balachandran

She does the most, he just participates(4&20)

An acrobat of love is she,
who contorts, sensing
which way he loves to move,
constantly making spirited coos.

In all aspects of love, lots of times this is what happens

#love #games

May 2014 Hayleigh

Unforeseen

May 2014 Hayleigh

Jacob Traver

Unforeseen

Contain the wind and darken the Sun
Dim the stars and let Havoc run.
Let Havoc run the world once glad
And thieve the joy that we once had.

Let Summers scorch the dying soot
And Autumns grow darker than the dirt under foot.
Let Winters cover the dead with fierce cold
And let Spring's regeneration never be told.

Harken pain and mourn the slain.
Let cries fill the skies and drive thee insane.
Never smile lest it be brightly seen
And thou be known as Evil's Unforeseen.

#love #dying #pain #death #evil #smile #seasons #panic #havoc #unforeseen #jacob #traver

May 2014 Hayleigh

Alcohol & I

May 2014 Hayleigh

K Daniel Little-Paw

Alcohol & I

the soothing sensation
all feelings, erased
all the people in my thoughts
defaced and replaced
by an emptiness so bold
it's solid in shape
I am lost to its liquid embrace

it brings me to a quieter, simpler place

and I lust for its soul-numbing taste.

May 2014 Hayleigh

Everywhere

May 2014 Hayleigh

LN

Everywhere

I have inhaled the air of countless cities
and left some of mine behind.

My distinct fingerprints are invisible
but they exist
in a place amidst many others
on tables and handles everywhere.

My voice had probably made someone turn
and wonder what type of a person I was.
Do I sound happy because I am
or is it a mere façade I have covered the truth with?
It will leave them pondering over the masks we wear.

Lipstick stains on coffee mugs
Kissing the worries goodbye
they flutter away into thin air
and become someone else's instead.

Eyes darting to the clouds above,
that water was once down here in the sea
but now it is above hovering over me.

Like snakes shed their skin,
and dead matter turns to trees
we leave a part of ourselves
on dusty shelves
for others to recover and use

the cycle goes on.

its a cycle

#self #life #nature #humanity #us #cycles

May 2014 Hayleigh

Hollywood's Dead

May 2014 Hayleigh

Sia Jane

Hollywood's Dead

There ain't no comin' back,
                 you always fall too far,
Into abyss, never ever learning,
You ain't comin' back,
                 from being that bad,
Leavin' you tomorrow, a promise made,
                  yesterdays last glass,
Forgivin' by the mornin', you'll always,
                  get your wish,
Nothin' is gonna come & save you,
                  you told me this,
Now look at the bliss, broken man,
                  a shot & a miss,
A kiss with a prayer; thirst, hunger, flesh,
                 heart filled boxes,
Crossing lines, blurred, unhinged,
                 beauty queen quest,
Disaster honey, the finest catch,
                trust earned with just one touch,
***, lust, a sincere must for you,
                fill it, empty it out,
Waking sober, harrowing saint,
               throw back the bottle,
Ain't no angel saving you,
              smoke another puff,
Drag it out long,
               shadow seeking,
Dissipating in air,
              polluted landscapes.
The world ain't yours any more,
              lost; born to die young.

© Sia Jane

Sorry for the epic absence and the lack of reading etc I am just crazy busy right now. Miss you all and miss your works and writing <3

May 2014 Hayleigh

HEAVENLY LIPS

May 2014 Hayleigh

BZQ

HEAVENLY LIPS

i want to kiss her. not because i want to feel the softness of her fair lips or the warmth of her breath as she exhales against me. i want to kiss her because i can’t think of any other way to fully express the beauty that she is. i want her to know that i see her as perfect. that she is perfect.
- bzq

#love #kiss #feelings #poetry #bzq

May 2014 Hayleigh

Thoughts

May 2014 Hayleigh

Amitav Radiance

Thoughts

So many thoughts flashing before my eyes,
So many ideas hovering inside my head,
Neurons and synapses reacting with lightning speed-
Fleeting moments of euphoric and neutral moments,
The subconscious is not subjugated anymore,
Taken over by the series of parallel journey of thoughts;
Never wanting to meet, but not willing to end either,
The powerful laboratory where ideas are experimented with,
Thoughts seem to travel faster than lightning speed,
Not able to grasp the roller coaster ride with upheavals;
Holding onto the norms and the usual dogmas for semblance,
But time has come for the cataclysmic events to occur,
As if to break the shackles of the mundane and the regular;
Unadulterated by the infusions from the external ideas,
The experimented thoughts have matured to a new level;
The time has come to dislodge the ages of darkness,
Where the mind thinks without the fear of being reprimanded…

© Amitav (Radiance)