Throat hurts from the smoke
These thoughts provoked
I feel it breaking
My life disrupted
I promised myself otherwise
Do you know how to read?
This label reads fragile

I'm feeling impulsive
Anything to run away
You want to be reckless
Such a harsh thing to say

Afraid of what I think is there
Feeling suffocated by air
Acting out when things don't feel right
This is my fight or flight
Losing control
Grasping whatever I can
I hate this was caused
Just by one man
Unexpected reactions
Full circle disfunction
Stop the cycle please
PTSD

Empathetic girl
Molded by her environment
Living two lives
One free
An escape from reality
One a war zone
A constant reminder
Of who she doesn't want to be

Go ahead deflect
Redirect
When I'm breathing down your neck
I won't stop
I give it all I got
Always until the end
Cause you'll never be my friend

The salesman with a sales pitch
Love on the table, made a switch
I become the enemy
Swarming in for a remedy
No time for the vague
I fly much higher
On top of your game
A predator
you can't commit
you're unfit
and it's sick
how proudly to admit
faults makes you humble
throw yourself down
Take a stumble
lay on the ground
you're under arrest
I can't contest why

Words we speak are not our own
Repeated arrangements
Created to make thoughts known
True meaning left behind
Authenticity
Genuine words lost in time
Ignore signs thrown
I'm immune to the let down

Want to be left alone

Thanks for your concern
I'm doing just fine
Putting back together
This heart of mine
I've been self sufficient
As long as I can remember
A windmill creating my lifestyle
Holding on to feelings in amber