I miss being yours
You seem like the person
Where when I say I'm hurt
You say “good”, and move along
But I'm addicted
To the thought of changing your mind
Rather than accepting what I cannot change
I find myself down a familiar path
Of holding on to the past
The amazing memories
The happiest I've ever been
For it all to just be ripped away from me
Again

Apple cider vinegar
Will clean anything
Maybe it will work
When I need to erase you
I'll wash myself and strip your scent
Maybe if I drink it
I can clean my thoughts too
You're a clever parasite
And I'm just a fool

I'm starving to feel better
Aftermath of stormy weather
When you left you ran
I'm doing what I can
I'll never apologize
For feeling so deeply
You wear a disguise
So perfectly
It's hard not to fall so steeply
You warned me
You weren't a real man
A boy in sheep's clothing
Keeping love on ban

You're consistent
And my teenage dream
But here I am
No longer seventeen
Our love is real
But don't ask how I feel
I always want what I can't have
And I can have you so easily

Hiding in my shell
Waiting for something real
Thanks for being here
Want to strike a deal
But I wouldn't dare
I'm afraid to bare
My scars from the past
Because I like to run fast

Filling in spaces
With attachment
Mild phases
Of abandonment
Wanting love
For myself
Instead I should
Just love myself