I am a mother, a wife
A friend, a teacher
I seek happiness
I love deep
Only souls not faces
Always loyal
I don't judge  
I love to help
I see good in everyone
Which makes me naive at times
I am open to all
Hoping for a world
Where everyone fits
Labels don't exist

I latch to rules
Anxiety demands
I suffer from OCD
Always chasing order
Shackled by disinfection  
I am comfortable in control
Leading the way
I seek to inspire
I believe in others
I am honest with my feelings
I value experience
And learn from them
I reflect on my day
Always trying to improve
I search for meaning in conversations
Enjoy learning new things daily

I play sports
Love music  
Enjoy Art
Express myself in writes
Fascinated by abstracts
Reading words to gain insight
The grace in movement  
The beauty in visual artistry

I love to re-discover nature
The acoustics of birds
Waterfalls and rain
Kissing falling snow
Connecting with our majestic sky
I love the stillness
Each morning brings
The dew sleeping in the emerald
The lacquered canvas
Of quiet lakes
Motionless  
In something so vast

Yoga is my philosophy
A healthy
Body
Mind
And spirit
My destination is
The pursuit of enlightenment  
In my life's pain
I am coming out of the spiral
Enjoying my journey
Seeing straight
Swimming the unalome
I feed my soul
Hoping IT can lead me
Leaving my ego in my wake

I remain unfinished
I continue to wear masks
Sometimes to hide
As I fear rejection
Still..
As happy as I seem
As lovely as I am
My soul has a shadow
Hidden inside
My essence traced
By shaded light
I am a survivor
Broken in places
Finally accepting my true self


Jl 2016

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“you never do anything right”
“you don’t belong here”
“i don’t want to see your face”
“get out of my sight”
“i hate you and i don’t want you”
“you’re so stupid”
“who would want you as a daughter?”

I gaze upon your rest
I take the time
To examine your beauty
Your kindness
The sweetness you hold
And I,
Smile in love

I stroll my eyes
to your little hands
An imprint  
Hanging  
On the walls
Inside my head
And I,
Smile in love

I see your face
And remember
Memorizing in awe
Precious late night feeds
Following your growth
From that infant
You once were
And I,
Smile in love

I am thankful
Each night
I can find
Comfortable peace
Fixing my broken
As I watch
You,
Smile in bliss
In my sundown

Jl 2016